I just found out another huge something.
Thats right, I had another huge bullet come my way.
My hands are shaking, and I think I'm going to throw up.
I'm exhausted from crying all day.
My eyes have been red and I've been sniffling since about 12:15 this afternoon.
And now there are two huge things going on.
I really don't want to be home alone right now,
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my eyes are bloodshot,
my face is swollen,
my nose is red,
and my sleeves are wet.
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friday: called Ido, spoke to him for awhile <3 i love himmm. i hate that he's going to the army and we'll hardley get to speak, but we promised we'd send letters/i'd send him packages. i miss his voice.. it was such a good talk. i told him about some of the lame stuff i've had going on lately, and he somehow made me feel better.. he was funny about ( Read more... )

last few days have been busy.. i like it though. Israeli's left on sunday :( we went to the airport with them, good times. Tuesday sucked. yesterday i went to the gym with Alexa, Leah, Naomi and Myr.. today I called Ido <3<3<3 he's calling here tomorrow. I miss his voice :( I think he's the only person that i can talk to on the phone that there ( Read more... )

If you think that I'm pathetic, want sympathy, or that I think that I'm "little miss perfect", fuck off and don't read my livejournal. When people leave anonymous lj comments, thats just a waste of youre own time. If you don't like what you read, why do you read it?
I use my live journal as a journal and express myself how I want, I can do what I ( Read more... )

I hate how nobody has noticed.
I hate how people have been super mean to me lately.
I hate how people find it funny to make fun of me about things that really hurt my feelings.
I hate how he, and other he are leaving.
I hate how it clearly wont be getting any easier.
I hate how I'm so drained, yet have so much to do.
I hate how scared I am for this.
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the last couple days have been good.. busy ( Read more... )

today was good.. my dad had his appeal in court.. but my parents didn't want me to miss school.. so my dad dropped me off at school this morning.. i called later on and asked him about it but all he said was "it was good".. so i'm not sure what that means.. i'm gonna ask him again later on.. and i woke up this morning at 4:30 (jet lag).. i was ( Read more... )

stupid ass flying.. as if 12 hours and 20 minutes isn't a long enough flight.. my plane was delayed, and i was sitting on that thing for 13 hours. thats alot! left Tel Aviv at 1am, arrived in Toronto a little after 7am.. and got to ottawa close to noon. time differences suck, i'm gonna be retarded the next few days. i'm gonna wake up at 3am, want ( Read more... )

I had to say goodbye to Ido tonight.
and everyone else.. well not everyone.. we called Ori, Aviel, Matan, Vidi, Gali, Orit, and Li-or.. but only Ori, Gali and Li-Or could come.. they start school again tomorrow (sunday), and have a huge test.. 
It was a good night. I'm sorry I didn't take more pics.

today: hungout with Adi in the afternoon (she was in ( Read more... )