So I figured maybe it's time I update my journal ( Read more... )

How is it that I suddenly have rekindled feelings for someone I haven't seen in years? It makes absolutely no sense. My ex Matt, suddenly shot to the front of mind and now he just won't go away. I haven't talked to him or anything, I happened across his myspace profile a few days ago and POOF! There he went right to the front of my brain. It's ( Read more... )

Regrets, they hover around us all the time. And I have a few confessions to make. Although I do not regret removing myself from my once comfortable (yet completely hostile) surroundings, but somtimes I do miss it. Days like this is pisses me off. It hurts to see that they really don't care a small amount about me not being around. I'm nonchalant ( Read more... )

What the fuck is going on! I have people fucking deleting comments I send them and people fucking around with my head. I'm just so fucking fed up. I mean it. My parents suddenly think I'm a fucking slave. Septa is on strike, so I can't get the fucking job I wanted! I go to sleep alone every fucking night. And I wake up every morning with the black ( Read more... )

For a while now, I have been looking at myself and trying to figure out what exactly is going on with me. I seem to destroy myself. I think back to how I used to be and how I am now, and I have changed dramatically. I used to be the girl everyone walked all over. The one everyone felt the urge to make fun of. I was the one with no friends. I was ( Read more... )

Here I go again, wallowing in my own pain. I've been thinknig alot about the things that have been going on in my life and realized that it's worse than I've lead myself to believe. How is that a 21 year old could have had as many problems as I've had? Everyday is a struggle to not have something bad happen to me. Yes I know, if you think ( Read more... )

1.When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at ( Read more... )

So I was on a movie set friday...pretty fucking awesome I must say. This week I am to be an extra so that'll fucking rock! I get to meet Greg Kinnear(so fucking hot!) and Mark Wahlberg. This should be really fun. Finally, I get to be in a movie!

Something has been plauging me for quite some time now and I guess it would be healthiest if I just write it down and attempt to get it out of my system. I've been lonely for quite some time now and I feel like shit. But I guess if you've read any of my prior enteries you would already know that. This is more serious than that. I have, in the past ( Read more... )

I've been thinking alot lately. More than usual actually. I've been feeling very out of sorts (also more than usual). I've lost interest in everything I love. I know I've been very depressed but this is getting ridiculous. I need to get out or something. Loneliness doesn't even amount to anything I'm really feeling right now. That and the fact that ( Read more... )