zan_ex

Its in my nature to be mistrusting of people, generally strangers, but often times I don't even trust people I know. I give them the benefit of the doubt but in my head every change, every different look means that something is stirring under the surface. I think people are generally good but have a hard time staying that way. I'm not ( Read more... )

I'm think about where I've ( Read more... )

I have so many things on my mind. I feel like this is the year to change my life and I need to figure out how to do it right. I certainly have options, I know what I want. I just have to put the plan in motion. I need some air. New air.

I wish that I could have every guy I have ever loved stand in front of me. I wish that I could say the last the thought I had of them aloud. I wish that I could apologize for hurting them. And I wish that I could then forget them all. I want to move to Houston. This time I'm serious. This time, It feels right.

I want to sleep a full eight hour night. I want to go shopping and eat crazy noodles and drink a papaya bubble tea. I want to walk on the beach at night and ride my bike on the sea wall during the day. I want to wear flip flops and shorts every day. Sometimes I spark some mj... But that's what I want. All that. Everyday.

I think the hour passed, I think the gears in the earth have begun to turn and that the slump we were in is gone. The fog has lifted and good things are to come ( Read more... )

ometimes I move as an effect of my brain reacting to an idea or thought. Sometimes I move in the opposite flow. And sometimes I do neither. I do not move and I do not think. I am that simple and that complicated. And so are you. I don't really know who or what I am because I fail to question it. I know that I am me and I know that I am strong and ( Read more... )

So I'm twenty and in a couple of months ill be twenty one and even though that's young I feel like I've got nothing to show for my time besides a few tricks up my sleeve and a few lessons learned. So its time now, and I've been absent in the darkness of some random virus the last couple of weeks thinking that I.need to get started on my future. ( Read more... )

You know sometimes I feel like no matter how much love and support you give a person you just can't change someone ( Read more... )