I hate how my mind often seems to have a mind of its own.... It  goes off on a stream of thoughts in regard to things that I don't really want to think about..... Or rather, things which aren't implemented into my daily life and have no relevancy in my life... My mind seems to be on auto-pilot.. Either morbidly reflecting on the past.. the could ( Read more... )

Once again my painful experiences with life have caused me to come to that jumping off point... Either something has to change, or shits gonna stay the same.. And Im frustrated with the cycle of bullshit repeating itself ( Read more... )

This is soooo random to write about.. random for someone to read and random for me to even be thinking about lately.. but, in all honesty, I have been and I don't know why because I seriously thought I had dealt with all this back in december when we were still hanging out and I just knew that there was NOTHING left between us...  So, I moved on ( Read more... )

Today Shayla and Jen came to Parkland and we met for coffee. And it all happened in perfect timing! Talking with them helped me put things into perspective. Reminded me of what I set out to do months ago.... They are both such beautiful spirits and hanging out with them today totally inspired me to get going and make magic happen in my life. Shayla ( Read more... )

With all this deconstruction of who I don't want to be.... I feel like I no longer know who I am..

But

I guess life isn't about finding yourself; its about creating yourself! I hope. =)

Last night I read something that someone had wrote about me back in august.. I remember reading it back in August and being soo incredibly angry.. I had soo much fucken rage toward this person for stating the TRUTH about my behavior.. I was completely incapable of seeing my fault cause all I could be was angry that they would say it about me ( Read more... )

Looking back on my life, one of the most rewarding experiences was working with at risk youth. Sadly I had lost interest in my particular job BECAUSE I spent way too much time presenting workshops across the nation and/or spending so many hours in my office writing grants.... Those were the aspects that totally turned me off.... However, I  ( Read more... )

"There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will"- Epictetus ( Read more... )

Turkey Bowl!! SUPER FUCKEN EXCITED!!!! All my boys will be there, Ben, Beto, Roach, Tony, David, Marcus and of course my girl Kelly!! My sister Kylie and her man are coming along for the adventure as well as my little brother!! SOOOOO STOKED ( Read more... )

This month I've had a series of very enlightening conversations with Sierra, My Mammy, Shayla, Karin and Mary.... Each individual conversation has impacted my life in such a huge way... Collectively they've caused me to come to a point in my life where I'm motivated to stay focused..  Im going to take one fucken step at a time, staying on the ( Read more... )