tonight sucked. i cried. ok. so i enjoy the idea of friends and family. and love. lol that makes me feel better. i'm still thankful i have electricity and heat, and a bed, and my senses. and a stinky job. and my car. =)

ohhh. i enjoyed my day off yesterday. it was a beautiful day and i made a point to get out and about as much as possible. aaahh vitamin d. sunshine is underrated.

my therapy session was good i thought. but i made my therapist cry. i'm not sure if that's a good thing or not though... lol but, i feel like i'm making progress and learning more about ( Read more... )

i just want oooone more day off. =( um actually no. what i really want is to not go back. maybe win the lottery or start my own business. >:] ah.

gee. did i miss a dose yesterday. i feel like it. i've had the most stupid day. i've run around in circles ever since i woke up this morning. i went to work and was sent home to take a personal holiday. (not that i minded leaving but i would have liked to sleep in ( Read more... )

i've had the weekend off from work. only to be rejected from another job i really wanted. it would have been the perfect escape from the hell hole of my job. especially @ christmastime. an online 'chat buddie' reminded me of the totally sound idea that 'there's a reason' why i didn't get the job. that i may have hated it. that's true but not more ( Read more... )

i have thoroughly enjoyed my day off today. i've felt whiney and have been crying a lot the past few days. i'm starting to realize that i'm learning a lot about myself. i'm learning that i'm not so bad. i really do love myself. lol ( Read more... )

tonight was still awful but it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. that girl and her friend were really nasty to me today. that was upsetting and i hate it. but the rest of the night was a relief. easy.

my favorite show is coming on now. conan o'brien. =) he always makes me feel better. i'm so thankful my life isn't any worse. and it could be ( Read more... )

uggh. today was an atrocious day. i feel awful. i have to manage people that hate me and treat me disrespectfully. and my supervisors don't stick up for me right in front of her. i hate my job. i dread going tomorrow. i feel like crying just thinking about it. i can't do it. i have to close tomorrow night. all i want is to mind my own business. i ( Read more... )

okay. yesterday was atrocious. i felt that awful pang of depression. i almost cried @ work. i hate closing. i had to close and with the drill sargent. she disrespected and talked to me like i was a moron like she does everyone. and i had to get firm with some of my favorite people because they refused to do what i asked them. i ended up having to ( Read more... )

today @ work seemed really long and tiring. but it was a 'good' day because i did my job really well. here in nashville it's was really cold today. it came out of nowhere. i liked it though. i'm so glad to be home.

gosh my life seems so boring now that i'm on medicaion and not 'depressed' anymore.

i saw the boss from my first job today. he ( Read more... )