i moved to seattle...hoping for a breakthrough. in my happiness, connection with nature, fulfilling relationships, becoming more established in the music scene...and i didn't really find it. am i to blame? granted, i did move here during a tough period of the pandemic & now they say the economy...and i worked really hard to make sure i didn't sink ( Read more... )

i'm having a hard time understanding myself lately...why am i so confused about it all? from where i live, what i do for work, what my passion is, if my partner is right for me...the list goes on. am i happy in seattle? kinda...the work opportunity is great, but my personal life is lacking

there are things i can do to approach my unhealthy ( Read more... )

I haven't used this in sooo long...but thought it could help me cement my thoughts together

moving to seattle has not been easy...is it everything i thought it was? yes & no. is it full of nature; water & trees? absolutely. is there a great nightlife? i suppose as much as any major city could hope for. am i meeting people quickly & easily? not ( Read more... )

what has happened to my focus on romantic love? i try to give it to the world, but it seems most successful to give it most to one person, like i used to know so well ( Read more... )

something you woke in me, something you helped me to remember. when i thought all was lost. i felt so defeated with sudden realizations of chances taken, lifetimes spent, friends lost, and ending up with nothing again. feeling so empty, so void of all meaning ( Read more... )

i've decided that everyday of my life should be eventful, so i'm going to keep a record of the things that happen to me everyday, or at least when i'm at work ( Read more... )

it's weird knowing you have a problem but simultaneously knowing there is no problem at all....it's like switching in and out of modes of consciousness...like, oh my god, i'm so nervous...what do i do? what do i do ( Read more... )

is a life that is my own ( Read more... )

why to be so empty ( Read more... )

i find myself stuck. i'm doing things just to do them, why? what's the point ( Read more... )