it's so insane what i'm learning about the media and my world. it's a fascination, an OBSESSION, a manner of living and perception for me and every human within the world. and it's motives are money, just money, that's all, not truth ( Read more... )

wow! what a relief! natalie found someone! :D :D ( Read more... )

these are the things in my life that are currently bothering me ( Read more... )

what has happened to me ( Read more... )

how could it have gotten to this point? i already know and i don't want to point any fingers, i understand myself at the same time that i'm not sure what to do about it...being confused is one of the worst conditions anyone should have to face. i think we all face it to our own degrees but i think that i may face it to a greater degree in my own ( Read more... )

i'm discovering some stuff that i think i already knew about myself subconsciously in this move to northern california...i don't really care about what i do for money, i'd just like it to be as painless and as stress free as possible...if there is a job out there that involves a cubicle and deadlines and paper work and analyzing and phone calls and ( Read more... )

what is reality? do i even know and am i scared to death of it...or just unwilling to place faith? so many "things" have happened in my life...or have they really? does it even matter? does the memory of yesterday serve for anything more than the lesson? and everything dies eventually, all of the happiness...is this a reason to stop living though ( Read more... )

yes, people suck...but so do i sometimes. too often than not, i find myself criticizing people for shit that i do too. none of us want to give something unfamiliar a chance, that's all it is. we're all afraid ( Read more... )

change is inevitable in everything except the mind. the mind is the only thing you truly get to control, but it is everything. changing the mind is a choice, you could sit there and choose to have a limited perspective, viewing your body as the true indicator of self, while everything around you will reflect abundance and expansion, your true self ( Read more... )

something's not fucking right!! i've never felt this way before!! so confused, so LONELY, so fucking TORN!!! what the FUCK is this all about??? and what the FUCK am i supposed to do about it ( Read more... )