surrounded by so many amazing people, so many lovely ladies and yet i still feel unfulfilled and empty ( Read more... )

I wish I knew the answer to this. I want to know what I want.

Holy fuck! Can this neausea in my stomache just CEASE already?! I cannot handle it. I'm optimistic and happy for moments until my feelings of anxiety flood back in. And despite focusing on other things, I know I won't be able to escape this until next Monday when I know for sure whether he will call or not ( Read more... )

times like these make me wish i never chased you ( Read more... )

i am overly sensitive ( Read more... )

why do i open my big mouth?
why why why?!
i hate all this drama.
i hate alot of things.
i hate that i have to work today and im finally suppose to get my cheque.
we'll see.

we'll see how everything goes down
fml.

my dads birthday is today
and my interview at trixie
i was stressed and trying to get my happy face on and enjoy some quality time with my dad
but now he has to go pick up my brother.
and they'll have more to fight about
and this dan thing has taken so much out of me this weekend

i really hate my life
i just want to lay down and die

So, I've been thinking alot lately. You know, about what I'm going to do with myself and I've figured out that i have no idea.
I know that I want to go back to school. But I want to fix up my living situation. And makemyhomea home again.
I want to be optimistic for the summer but I'm so unsure.
Godiva is closing..?!
fahck my life.

On a positive note..
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wednesday: work out; go home & shower; go downtown to pick up books from Robarts; call work & see what sched is for the weekend/ if i can take one of those days off; come back & read; go out with Sam
thursday:work out? READ. SPANISH PROJECT!! - WRITE SCRIPT
friday: work? READ; see Chlo/go out with her & Egg
saturday: work; see amber & morgan?
sunday: ( Read more... )

Well I know exactly how. I just don't understand why. I dont understand how I let things get this bad; how I let life get so bad. I guess I was just naive and blinded by my own love or self-love if thats possible. Having a guy to fall head over heels in love with me was all i ever dreamed of and when it happened I was so overjoyed I allowed the ( Read more... )