arhg
im SO fucking frustrated..
ith my mom & mr mackinnon
like wtf is up ur ass mr mackinnon!? i dont go to your class because i dont want to GET THE FUCK OVER IT AND STOP CALLING MY MOM TO BITCH ABOUT ME SKIPPING
fuck
and then my mom gets all annoyed
and if he tried to ask me why i skipped im jus going to tell him because i didnt want to go.. because NO ( Read more... )

omg its 5 42 and i just cant get to sleep.. im scared of my dreams now.. & im also crying too much.. 
i hate how much it hurts.. it was just a dream.. but it .. was soo similar.. 
okay.
heres the retelling that i wont tell again because i cant because its breaking my heart to jus think about this dream 
i was like sitting on a porch swing thing ( Read more... )

it was soo hard to wake up this morning.. its so dark and i was soo cozy and its just soo early.. blaah..
i also went to sleep later so im not as rested.. AAAND i have a math test..which im pretty sure im ready for.. i was ready last week.. i SHOULD be ready today..
but.. im kindof nervous..
not just about the math test.. but about taekwondo..
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yes.. i am
i cant help it.. i dont even know why i try to go on "health kicks"
*sigh*
i had cheesecake.. alot of it.. after i ate my sub which i wasnt even hungry for.. but was pretty good..
i wish i didnt eat when i wasnt hungry.. because i dont get hungry much..because im small and dont need that much.. but i cant help but want food.. <3 & love ( Read more... )

lmao omfg.. i had such a good laugh at Corey snapping to the Lollipop song <33 haha it honestly reminded me of fat Vern from Stand By Me<33 hahaha oh how i love him..
*sigh*
had a good day.. trig is starting to come back to me & im getting it.. which really makes me feel goooood.. aand.. mm.. iunno i got to spend alot of time w/ my Teddy Bear<3

im ( Read more... )

i love that Corey can whistle.. like good tunes & stuff.. 
at first we were jus humming and singing Christmas songs but then he started to whistle them! which amused & amazed me<3

but i also told him about Papaya.. the name of my child with a studder and he had a gay old time with  it "how about mango! or berrie! hah! berrie could actually work too ( Read more... )

so earlier yesterday i was kindof up & down, being the fickle pickle that i am  & wasnt sure if i wanted to go to Screemers but im glad i did..  everyone said it wasnt THAT scary.. but..  i was pretty freaked out.. especially since EVERY house thing we went to there was always SOMEONE who invaded my personal space and screamed or whispered in my ( Read more... )

this weekend was fun & very relaxing / soooo chillen :P
we jus lounged, smoked, ate, watched alot of football and hockey, smoked summore.. bummed around, wrestled, watched or actually played catch, played a long ass game of cheat and i eventually won when we gave up.. & ofcourse, drank & chilled in the hot tub<3
it was all very nice & funny.. 
and now ( Read more... )

*yawn*
so its nice & early & i'm all packed & ready to go to randy's cottage..
well actually im really ready to pass out on the drive up there & maybe snuggle w/ corey if i sit beside him?
w/e..
blah
yesterday was a pretty .. alrite day.. math was blah.. easy peasy.. just have to study a bit 2morow & monday for that math exam because this weekend is a ( Read more... )

no one understands
so whats the point in speaking?

no one even cares
so whats the point in trying?

im not worth it
so whats the point in living.