This is fucking crazy. End of.

I love how people think that their emergencies are my emergencies and not the other way around also. Fuck this being used and abused shit.

I am not wrong to have boundaries. I am not wrong to expect respect. It isn't out of hand to want the person you're attracted to and to want to be around them a lot. That's like one of the most normal things I do ( Read more... )

I am pretty sure I'm losing my mind right now. Got served eviction paperwork today, 2 days later than it should have. I have an interview tomorrow, but I don't know how that'll turn out. It just feels like everything is piling up on me and I can't breathe. I don't know what to do and I feel helpless as fuck. I want to throw a fit. But, I can't do ( Read more... )

I have come to the conclusion that I must ask my parents for monetary help or I will be homeless. This sucks major. This is compounded by being too broke to buy cigarettes. Stress without nicotine is fucked up. Boo this.

Today, I'm trying to move forward. Got up super early. Have a timeline for accomplishing things. Just hoping I can maintain this momentum. I'm trying. Despite being beset by things that are highly triggering and off putting. Oh well. Something's gotta give. This is not a sustainable model, so I'll have to figure it out.

I'm trying an experiment ( Read more... )

I'm so frustrated with everything right now. Is life really supposed to be this rough? It seems like everything is just misery and I don't know how everything hid this from me. But, I am pretty well known for not catching on sometimes. I dunno. It seriously can't be like this for everyone. For real. I have to go to work later an I have a cold and I ( Read more... )

That moment when someone you haven't seen, much less spoken to in more than ten years decides to give you expert advice about yourself. And tell you to suck it up when you're suicidal. Thanks, bro. I'm all set on you for the forever. Recede into the not-thought-about corners again and btw, Fuck you. I try to think about things I say before I say ( Read more... )

I really don't like snap decisions about my life. Most especially ones I don't have any hand in. I'm sick to death of being shifted around like baggage. Infuriating. I feel alone and helpless and everything is fucked up. Argh!