So basically I've got it all backwards. When I need to talk and be social, I'm shy and quiet and when I just need to shut up, I blurt everything out and end up feeling bad. I can't sleep when I feel bad. Like seriously I can't ( mer )

So I decided I couldn't let that last post be my most recent. Because well that's unlike me, or the me I want to be/ see myself as. So I made a plan. I'm going to a run a mile at least every other day (it was going to be everyday but I have awful shin splints and didn't do it today.) I started yesterday. Also, I'm going to get more. And sleep ( Read more... )

This is when it definitely sucks not having friends. None at all. My last friend is no longer my friend, but I'd give anything to have someone to talk to right now. I hate being all alone. I can't believe I held in the tears this long. My pretty makeup...ruined. I didn't mean for it to end this way. Jorge and I are not happy right now. Or ( Read more... )

So yeah its ridiculous but I feel sooo old. Like there's noticeable differences between how my body reacts now and from when I was younger. And I don't mean younger when I was 19, 20 days ago, I mean younger like years. Its just at 20 thats a quatifible difference and therefore causing my nostalgic mood. For example, bones crack now that I feel ( Read more... )

yeah I haven't posted in a while because I haven't needed to. Life is pretty good right now, no major downs. Its just all going up hill from here. I'm glad things are working out like they are. Its all working itself out. Like I said it makes me happy.

Here's what's on my mind. (I wish you could talk back to me.) I'm happier, its true but....I don't even know. Words words words words words words words words words words words...they're missing.

~C

/laɪf/ /ɪz/ /ˈbɛtər/ /naʊ/. /ˈɒnɪstli/. /ˈbrutli/. /aɪ/ /æm/ /lɛs/ /strɛst/,
/aɪ/ /æm/ /ˈdilɪŋ/ /wɪð/ /ˈɛvriˌθɪŋ/, /laɪf/, /ˈbɛtər/. /wɛl/ /ˈkaɪndə/
/ˈbɛtər/, /ˈmeɪbi/ /maɪ/ /ˈmɛθədz/ /hæv/ /ˈgɒtn/ /wɜrs/ /bʌt/ /aɪ/ /fil/
/lɛs/ /strɛst/. /ɪz/ /ɪt/ /bæd/ /ðæt/ /rɪˈlɪdʒən/ /strɛst/ /mi/? /ænd/
/naʊ/ /aɪ/ /fil/ /eɪ/ /weɪt/ /lɪftəd/ /bɪˈkɔz/ /aɪ ( Read more... )

One of these days I'm going to write a whole entry in old english but not currently because I'm in Barnes n Noble supposedly doing my research paper. I'm take a break to reflect or is it deflect. Just yeah...thinking....:(

Thank goodness I only had rum.

I detected where I am...apparently I'm in Portland.

So let me tell you about my day, or week, or year. So today, I woke up at 11:30 because Justin called. You see he thought I missed my first class but I didn't because I don't have spanish this week because I have an interview for that class thursday but we'll get there. So got ready, drove to 7-11. Was really sad that gas rose to 2.39, only ( Read more... )