im writing here with the sole purpose of hoping that you will read it, because at times im too much of a coward to tell you in person. and like an idiot i go back to live journal to look at pictures, and i find that you still write in it ( Read more... )

i cant stand that hes gone..........
i miss him so much.

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pray. pray. pray.

he needs all the help he can get on his way up.....

hes broken, weak, and tired.

.... waiting for the inevitable is the worst feeling in the world.

you know those days where your feeling a little down and all you want to do is talk to a certain person.. and they either dont pick up or dont have the time to talk...

.... iv never felt so alone in my life.

im so tired of hearing everybody tell me what i should and should not be doing. If they think im making the right decisions, and if im not, all the reasons why. I need to find things out for myself, even if it means im going to end up hurt somewhere down the line ( Read more... )

i have this horrible feeling in my stomach that i cant get rid of

is ignornce really bliss??

and is all of this really worth it........?

i do not wish the pain iv been going through to anyone else on the planet. but it is also arrogant of me to think that i am the only one who will and has gone through all of this. As a matter of fact, i know several people who are in quite the same perdicament as i, and to them i wish nothing but the best and all the patience in the world ( Read more... )

i understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and ( Read more... )