I'very been feeling fat constantly. Everytime I eat anything that is not a fruit or vegetable, I feel like I failed. There are a few things triggering me to think more about my weight and my body. The first one is seeing someone I know lose weight. She looks like a twig now and it makes me feel huge. Another thing is people bitching about my ( Read more... )

138 pounds today. The weight is coming off but if I want this to happen sooner, I'm really going to have to kick it up a notch. Everytime I let myself have even 100 calories more than I meant to, I get so angry at myself because I hate my body so much at the moment and the numbers on the scale. I hate the way I look in everything and trying to shop ( Read more... )

I've been so sick so lately. My allergies are extremely bad. My eyes are watery, my nose is running, my nose and throat burn. Even the sinus medication I've been taking isn't helping. Sometimes I wonder if going to the doctor would help bit it would provably be a waste of time. The binge on Sunday did a huge ammount of damage. I gained like crazy ( Read more... )

I didn't anything on Saturday except frozen cool pops that had 25 calories apiece. I ate about seven of them. I weighed today at 136.4 but today, I binged. The ed movie "starving in suburbia " turned out to be good. It was pretty triggering because the actress looked like she really did lose weight for the movie and some of the movie made it more ( Read more... )

Right now, I weigh 137 pounds. Today I had 1200 calories which is kind of bad but I've ate worse. I got new batteries for my scale and this girl I know who is a mix between a friendenemy stepped on the scale and she weighed 117 pounds. She said she had no idea what she weighed and wanted to found out. I'm really glad I didn't step on the scale in ( Read more... )

137 pounds today. The scale moved just a little. I wanted it to.move more so I.took laxatives and walked each of my two dogs for twenty minutes. I'm uneasy about my food intake today but I decided not to eat anything after five today and stay awake until at least eleven so my stomach will be empty for six hours. That guy who I hear from ( Read more... )

I'm still going back and forth from 138 to 139 pounds. I'm surprised it wasn't worse considering I ate chocolate on Easter. I feel so much fatter though. I think my legs are really fat. I totally get why I'm alone. Today, a friend wanted me to have cappuccino with them. I'm getting scared to drink it because it drives me insanely trying to figure ( Read more... )

I weigh 138.2 pounds today. The last couple of days have been fairly okay but today someone gave my brother and me one of those chocolate bunnies wrapped in gold paper and I ate mine which was stupid. I'm glad I have the internet because I checked the calorie content and or has 270 calories and 18 grams of fat which is gross. I should have checked ( Read more... )

Today wasn't a good day for me. It sucks I had a bad day but I will have a clean slate tomorrow. I probably gained but there is nothing I can do about it now except get the pounds off . I feel really fat now. I'm spending more time looking at how I look. I think.I've been in somewhat of a denial stage. Telling myself I don't look bad and I think it ( Read more... )

I went over by 150 calories today. It really made me sad and worried I didnt lose. The minute I calculated it and found out I messed up, I felt so fat. I looked in the mirror and saw a whale. It didn't help that before I had my food problem, I had another bad experience with my brothers counselor. The guy is so mean to me, I can't understand what I ( Read more... )