is this really what i want to do with my life?

i have to stop doing this...i know it isnt good, but its a habit and i cant help it.

panic attacks and the shakes...so confused. but im tired of the drama, no matter how hard i try to avoid it, it finds me. im finished with it through, im not dealing with it any more, im not trying. this is too hard.

FUCK

i dont know what to do

i think i should be hungry

so its been a while. life sucks....again. i never would have guessed. trying to pull through, im sure ill make it, if not...ill die trying.

i feel like ive been on break forever...i cant wait to get back to school. i miss my friends and i miss the social life. aside from going camping yesterday i have sat around and done nothing and will continue to do nothing. i dont know what to do...i have so much on my mind, but im not sure who to turn to. im tired of dumping my problems on others ( Read more... )

is it sad if i want to go back to school already?

well, im not quite sure where to start. ive been having soo much fun lately. i love being here and i love the people i hang out with. im still not a fan of the city, but it isnt that bad. we have a schedule set of things to do everyday...its so much fun. sometimes we cant carry through though, because we are low on funds. well, i never have money ( Read more... )