there's so much i wanted to say but it all seems very pointless right now. i had so much anger built up but it all blew out the window on saturday night. now it's sadness and loneliness on the one hand and relief and a weight lifted on the other. because i know that relationships aren't what that was. our conversations were pretty meaningless and ( Read more... )

well, here i am back in atlanta. i'm almost all the way moved back in. i just need to put sheets on my bed, put my clothes away, and finish laundry. and get groceries--that's key. i gave the play tickets to brooke and randy, because ben's working and i am in a fight with my mom so we're not speaking so i don't want to see her. brooke and randy will ( Read more... )

come to think of it, i don't know if a change in location will fix this sadness.

i really wanted to go back to school tomorrow in order to find some sort of zen-like calm state before classes and kaplan and the writing center all get into swing. when i am at emory, my life is calm and ordered the way i like it to be and the only crises i have to deal with are my own, which are usually quite manageable. there is a routine and a ( Read more... )

everyone starts back at school today. emory doesn't even begin until NEXT wednesday, thursday for me since i have no classes on MWF. i wasn't going to move back until a week from now, because we have a writing center meeting next tuesday, but the way things have been at home, i might move back thursday of this week after my dentist appt. on ( Read more... )

i haven't written in a while. i don't know why. things have been whirlwindy. i'll try to recap what has happened since october? i did well in school fall semester. i got an a in history, an a- in brit lit, and a b+ in my senior seminar on shakespeare. next semester i am taking 3 classes, which all fall on tuesdays and thursdays. i am also planning ( Read more... )

took the gre yesterday. raised my verbal score 120 points from the first time i took it. math went down 10 but that is nothing. i am happy with my score. and almost done with this application ( Read more... )

i finished the da vinci code last night. it was a pretty exciting book. i wonder how much of it is true? it's a nice thought and it sort of gives me a foundation for why i think i believe in god but don't like organized religion ( Read more... )

the office premiers tonight. that's a spot of happiness.

i'm just ready to move on with my life. being at emory is a waste of my time at this point. being in atlanta is a waste of my time. i just don't feel connected to anything. i feel like i could be a lot happier if i just packed up and left and moved no less than 500 miles away.