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The need to feel free and alive
i don't regret never living it up or knowing what it would be like to be a carefree teenager and college student. that wasn't me and it wasn't the life i was given. carefree was a luxury i didn't have, but as a result i am where i am today and have accomplished so much in spite of my upbringing and where i come from, and i am very, very proud of it ( Read more... ) -
I've been me, following my dreams
I had turned 25 a week ago, and i look back on my life and really and am amazed at where i am and who i am today. 2 years ago i had been getting sick and didn't know what it was, just moved into the parker house with nick and roommates, and never would of thought we would have a home together 2 years later and having some of my closet friends life ( Read more... ) -
poem (sorta)
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i thought i was jealous
for the past week its been all i been thinking about and i been having weird dreams about children. so when i get the news today all that just seemed to make more sense. i look at her and i kept saying to myself, "why not me? why do i get MS and she gets to have the baby?" i know its stupid but i feel like its just not fair. i also know if i really ( Read more... ) -
I miss my livejournal
So much has happened since i last posted and i find myself feeling like each day i need to try and achieve as much as possible because i don't know what the future has in store for me. I have become even more anxious then i used to be, and today in the neurologists office there was a lady talking to me about MS, she was 48 and has it also. She ( Read more... ) -
I'd come for you
gosh how i love rock ballads! today has just been a good day and its all thanks to awesome music that describes the kind of love that i dream of and believe in. the funny part is its all an illusion in my head, but hey, it makes great songs! the devotion someone has to another and how they would do anything to prove their love. it's funny how when ( Read more... ) -
nothing like writing out your cabalities
i should have worked on my resumes like two months ago. i noticed by writing them i'm just listing the things i can do and its a huge ego boost. i'm the type of person who gains confidence from what they know and can do, and compliments of beauty just never do nothing for me. so when i got a call from the michigan humane society today after i only ( Read more... ) -
true strength
well i did it. i took the first step to not allowing others to rule with fear over me. as long as i can remember i was always hiding and cowering from someone yelling and who terrified me. spent pretty much all my life being afraid. i guess i just had it. was done with it. done carrying shit around with me, done with not having total control over ( Read more... ) -
the safe card
when i was in high school i witnessed how badly stupid mistakes and acting spontaneous could really mess up one's life and the lives around them. i've known this since i was five. It's the root of why i have done and have not done things in my past and still to this day. I would have liked to believe that when i was younger i would have liked to ( Read more... )