It's 12:30 am, im sitting on my couch alone. My sister is at her exboyfriends house baby sitting his dogs and hoping in vein that the more she volunteers for these things the sooner she'll be asked to live with him. All the while still not comprehending that, while she is carring his baby, he will always be too selfish to actually ask because with ( Read more... )

God..It's going to be a year next month. A year. A YEAR FUCKER. A year since you told me you'd be there for us, a year since you said everything was going to be fine, since you said we were going to do this together. Where are you? God dammit, why am I still doing this by myself? You don't even begin to know the toll this has taken on me. And ( Read more... )

Hey. Not a lot is happeneing, just chilling out. Taking my weekend off nice and easy. We were supposed to finish painting the babies room, but john fell asleep at his friends house. So yeah, in a second i might go in there and finish up anyways. I'm so excited, we get to find out what the baby is on monday. and it won't stop kicking me. arg. found ( Read more... )

I can't believe you dude. Seriously, I don't fucking believe you

FUCK YOU. I'M SOOO GLAD I'M LEAVING PEOPLE LIKE YOU. SOME OF THE OTHER UPPER MANAGEMENT I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH. JESUS..I'M SO PISSED I CAN'T EVEN WRITE. YOU SUCK. HOPE YOU HAVE A BAD DAY.

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN TWO DAYS!!!

It kinda depresses me.

You're beautiful blue and white...

I'm not sure what I'm writing about here, but I suppose I'm writing for the sake of it. This song always makes me think of different things. It's the one by A Perfect Circle, from the CD Nathan burned me the day we broke up. It's a beautiful song but I don't know the name. He probably does. I haven't spoken to him ( Read more... )

11:51 PM

I'm waiting for you to get here but you seem to want to take your time getting home.

Steve just walked in and I think I scared him a bit. I wanted it to be you but alas, just steve.

You're keyboard is weird and your "," key sticks. It's slightly disgusting, but I love ya anyway.

Come home already, I don't like sitting here without you. Makes ( Read more... )

Today wasn't horrible. I really could have been worse, but I really shouldn't say that...I've still got some time. I'm waiting for John to get home so I can lay with him a bit and feel nice inside.Something seriously pissed me off today though and it had to deal with Jay and fucking CowBoy in my constitution calss. We were all judges and I made it ( Read more... )

Oh my sweet jesus. I think it really hit me, I'm actually going to be in this play, semi leading role or not. I'll tell you what though, I feel so childish for putting up such a stink about being one of the daughters. I don't really know what got into me, but it just seemed like I wasn't good enough to do what I was actually trying to do. I think ( Read more... )

So, for the first time in a while I'm nervous about taking the stage. It's not going to be twenty other people there with me, to help me get through my notes and encourage me to try harder next time. It's me, up there on the stage singing to an audience who will probably say something like, "That's the show band girl..maybe she should stick with ( Read more... )