Okay, so I know that no one reads this, so I am basically writing to myself, which is quite lame, but thats about the extent of my life. Lame and lonely. I am one of the lonliest people I know, and yet that's not really a good testiment because I don't hang around with enough people to be a judge of how lonely I think I am.....blahhhhh I suck.

I am never going to associate with people who act the way a lot of people acted in my house last night. or in my neighbours for that matter. I AM SICK TO MY HEART AND MIND OVER STUPID BULLSHIT THAT DOESN'T NEED TO GO DOWN...BUT DRUNKEN KIDS ALWAYS WANT TO GO DOWN. I KNOW WHO I AM NOW BECAUSE OF ALL OF THIS IN THE LAST TWO WEEKS...I AM CERTAINLY NOT ( Read more... )

my life is quite up in the air right now...I used to like that, not knowing when the next source of goodness or wierdness would come along...but now...I don't like it all so much. I am in a strange transition stage of life...and I hate it because it had to happen at some point...but why now??? why do I have to dissapoint the people that I respect ( Read more... )

I have made up my mind that I am going to be straight-edge in the week...and then meh...see what the weekend brings. I can't afford to drink every night and smoke dope every night...and my body can't afford it either....so ( Read more... )

So...yes...this weekend was pritty chillin...the weather was amazing...I made money that I won't get for two fxxx'n weeks...spent good time's with my AMAZING ( Read more... )

I wish that I could just live out in nature, learn naturally from a young age how to survive and build things, and maintain a fire, and live as one with our source as human beings, and that's what the earth is; it is the source from which we came, XSCIENTIFICALLY DOCUMENTEDX So, what I was wondering was ( Read more... )

OK, So new update on the whole job thing....when I was out at the movies yesterday....the Independant grocer called me...that makes 3 people who all want to hire me....IN ONE DAY! What in the God Damn Hell is that! Nothing....nothing....nothing....AND THEN TOO MUCH! So this morning I get my tired ass out of bed...have an interview at Wendy's and ( Read more... )

OKAY IT IS OFFICIAL....I AM EMPLOYED! BOO-FUCKIN-YAKASHA! Now I can pay for my own things, buy my amazing Mark gifts...anything is possible with an income....phat road trips this summer...camping all of the things possible with MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!!!!!!!!! SO EMOTIONAL so....I have a definit job and another interview all in one fucking day ( Read more... )

So I had the most emotional night I think that I have ever had last night. It started off by going for a walk while I was waiting for my amazing Mark to get off from work, I watched the sun go away for another day in the park, and played drums on the picnic table, who cares if anyone could hear me!?? I dont ( Read more... )

IT'S FRIDAY, "Woopie do shangrila"!!! Yay, that means that I might get to see Mr. Mark, and that there will be mad eniebriation, haha spelt that wrong for sure! But ya, I don't have a lot to say today, exept that I miss Mark, I miss the friends that are friends of Mark's....Cheryl is a bomb shell...I want your hair...I am going out to put in more ( Read more... )