There are moments in life that you realize it will always be you and them against the world, no matter what.

As I look back on the past year I think just how much of my life and my situation has changed. And then I realize, just how much of me has changed ( Read more... )

I never really put a lot of thought into how growing up poor (At least for the first ten years or twelve years of my life) affected my personality until now. I feel a lot of people don't quite understand how poor I was or what growing up REALLY poor is like ( Read more... )

Wachowski films always leave me with the same feeling. Utter tears, and as though my heart is being broken open from the inside out. Watching Cloud Atlas today, reminded me of these revelations, and in their own way, caused me to remember the feelings or considerations I've had over my own life ( Read more... )

I know it's been awhile since I've journaled, it takes me a few tries to realize and do what is healthiest for me so, here we go again.

J's sister got married this past weekend. It was such a difficult wedding, the planning, the leading up to it, the groom to be,  and then his sister turned into a bit of a bridezilla towards the end. But the ( Read more... )

Sometimes I find myself wandering around the house like a wounded animal. Not for any particular reason, simply that I can't carry the weight of my own thoughts.

I always thought I was a forgiving person, and I think that for the most part, I am in the sense that I will forgive someone for their own good, I'll forgive them for pleasantries and to make them feel better, but when it comes to what i'm feeling inside, I think the overwhelming reaction almost always is,  how could you.

Chalk it up to an abused ( Read more... )

Though my moods may seem flippant, in every way  my life is tumultuous.  I'll accept that my moods have been wavering more often than the tides change. My life, for the past several weeks, has been getting thrown from one violent situation to the next. Being homeless, having to deal with moving/ finding a new place, then starting a new job at a ( Read more... )

So I know for a fact that I'm so not ready for a relationship, but being young and, shall we say, Virile, thinking that I just needed some casual sex. A coworker (who's been very interested in me) and I went out. We went to the movies and I was kind of casually moving towards touching him, arms touching at the film, leg brushing against one another ( Read more... )

'Life is not the way it's  supposed to be. It's the way it is. The way you cope with it is what makes the difference.'