The continuous cycle of missing the mark. Who really knows her... The fear of letting them all down. It swarms behind the tears that once stained a pillow. The fear is saturating her every thought. The lights in the distance don't remind her of anything familiar. The sound of traffic keeps her mind speeding with the flow. His arms give in and come ( Read more... )

One day the sun is shining, then next it's dark, sometimes rain. But the umbrella goes up, and the smile remains in tact. The games are on.. But I don't wanna play. She's a one women show, and lovin' it. I remain on the sideline by choice. I want nothing to do with those tears, I've cried enough of my own. But my pillow is dry tonight as I accept ( Read more... )

You yell at me and I shut down. He talks to me and I smile. Your eyes are burning through my thoughts. His eyes captivate me and smother me in security. Why did I have to rise up under your wing? I'm so tired. I can't try perfection out anymore. Can you just support me? Is that a foreign concept to you? Support. At times it means loving me no ( Read more... )

( Here I Am )

This is ridiculous, my heart is too involved. I've allowed myself to melt without a thought. Meanwhile, the keeper of my heart strings is floating along without a care in the world, probably unaware of what they possess. Why does everything always have to get so complicated? Why can't boy meet girl, girl meet boy, fall for each other, tell each ( Read more... )

I'm screaming! Is no one listening?! My heart strings have been tugged, but I feel a game coming on. I'm sitting here in front of you, I'm asking for your time; support. I get nothing. You walk away in disgust because I won't live in your shoes. I won't live the life you expect me to! Don't expect me to be someone that I am obviously not. It hurts ( Read more... )

This hurts. How can a heart that has been so battered and bruised fall so easily, so quickly? It's like a trap, a snare that is following me around. Someone so bold, so honest, where is the honesty when some need to hear it most? What is going on here? What has happened? In a fog, a haze, floating along down a road, with no map. This can't be good ( Read more... )

The walls continue to build, and nothing shows light at the end of the tunnel possibly coming. Sitting in this cube, trying to be patient. Patience won't get anywhere, only causing restless sleep. No emotion, just push on. Put a smile on and enjoy the moment. Cranium swarming, nothing comes out in clarity though. It's foggy, but clarity awaits down ( Read more... )

Inspiration coming from the words hitting my eyes and flooding my brain. The hum of everyday is flowing through my thoughts without getting caught. The embrace leaves me feeling safe. Secure. Why must I be haunted by the things I despise most? I'm trying! I'm begging to be let go of? Why is it when I feel that I can't possibly be loved, all of a ( Read more... )

The sun is always shining here and my smile never seems to fade. I've fallen too hard too fast and I feel like I'm falling too much. This is just a game. Entertainment for the time being. Without laying down roots, someone is satisfied. But "not I" said the little red hen. I don't want to be here, just to be here. But I guess it's my fault for ( Read more... )