i'm home ppl and like its great i love it out here and i love being with my mom and dad. i feel really sick though i've got this like DEADLY cough lol....anyway....so yeah....i wonder how ppl out in vegas are righnow...kinda weird that i just cant be like hey bitch come over and hang out for a while....lol eh its alright though i'm happy here and ( Read more... )

i cant stop crying....i'm going to miss everyone so much....i'm going to miss alyssa the most....i wish i could make everything up to her....i dont know how to make her see how much i'm dying inside from having to go....i dont know how to make her realize that YES i love her with all my heart and YES i'm really going to miss her....all those ( Read more... )

i'm haning out with reggie and natalie rightnow...it interesting...my head hurts and i'm tired and i have hiv okay okay bye now. 

*sigh* this weekend was so fun...like i dont even care about anything bad that happened. lol hell i dont even remember what happened if it was bad...anyway....i went out with reggie and k and like it was great we were out till like almost four in the morning and i didnt even realize it lol...it was crazy...then last night we all went to the drive ( Read more... )

 well so much for doing good...she told me what she did last night...sounds like she had a good time with robyn...i'm happy to hear that...she old me she drank rum like mad though...i fucked up and asked a question the wrong way...my brain isnt working or something today...i asked her if she was good instead of asking if she felt like she was going ( Read more... )

theres so many things running through my head about her rightnow...who is she with...is she okay...does someone else have their arms around my baby...does she have hers around someone else...so many things that are going through my head that i cant trust myself with those thoughts...in my heart,  i know shes being good...she told me she would be ( Read more... )

i talked to an abuse therapist...i told them how i treated alyssa and how i can with her...they started telling me that what i was doing was considered abuse...and that i dont deserve her...the told me that if i dont leave her alone things could get worse and that i might end up hurting her...they started to yell at me cause i started crying...they ( Read more... )

 i miss you

OMG! i had so much fun tonight with chris!!! we played halo 3 till like 1130 i fucken owned that shit mkay? lol it was awesome. i played with chris while alyssa went to dinner with the fat ugly fucker that by the way made her pay for shit...talk about fucking using someone. oh well its her money and her fucked up friend. anywho enough being mean... ( Read more... )

dude i'm never doing that again when i'm tired...i fell asleep waiting in my car for that girl and she didnt even come out. i felt like a bum. lol i'm never dropping anything off to her again. she can come get it from now on. lol god i feel stupid. anywho i'm really tired ppl and i have no clue why...i slept like nine hours today...i should be fine ( Read more... )