Feel free to leave a comment if you want to see anything from after October of 2005. I can't guarantee that it's going to be profound, but I hope for at least thought-provoking. I have a much more mundane journal that I keep public... you're welcome to view it, if you can find it.

Well, I'm home now. I love this house, but it's definitely not my home. Living with an ex-fiance sucks. He still wants to work on things, and I just can't do it. I can't even bring myself to hang around when he's home. There's no animosity, either. I just don't want to be around him because he still wants to sit next to me and hold hands and kiss ( Read more... )

I wanted to post this in my "mundane" journal so my usual friends know what's up with me lately, but my ex-fiance reads it, and he's not ready to see this yet. He gave me that book I've mentioned in previous entries, and it was a pretty decent read, actually. The things is, he needs to read it before he can read the conclusions I've come to. I want ( Read more... )

In case anyone is wondering, I am still alive. I've been quite busy lately. We're almost home, and I expect to have more time to update properly from there. So much has transpired. In a nutshell ( Read more... )

There is nothing significant going on except that I am an emotional wreck. The man whose love I have garnered has managed to endear himself to my heart. I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know what to do with him.

I hate hate hate self-help books, but suddenly I find myself reading one. My ex-fiance gave it to me before I left; it's ( Read more... )

Today is my father's birthday. I didn't even think about it being his birthday until the Master Chief made today's birthday announcement for the ship ( Read more... )

Another excerpt:

( Adoration at its finest )

( obstinate mendaciousness was the title of this one )

I hate that I am so far away from people who need me right now.

An excerpt:

Do you think I’ve been overzealous in my adoration of you? Do see it as superficial or do you find profundity in the expression ( Read more... )