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happy fourth of july you all.

i don't know what ya'll been told but things aren't the best for me right now and we all have our problems but last night i had so much fun at work and made a bunch of money and i don't know if i'm ever going to do it again but i'd like to maybe. i don't care anymore, really, can't you tell?

i am not perfect. i used patrick to make nathaniel mad, nathaniel used kim to make me mad. it worked. i hurt partick by using him and nathaniel hurt kim by using her. i am so bored with all of this fighting and hurting and i have felt so heavy these past few days and i'm so over it. i just want to leave this city fuck all ya'll cause only fools are ( Read more... )

last night i probably said amazing at least one hundred times. my vision was so blurred and i had a fantastic time. even when he wasn't touching my pussy i still felt him, and if that ain't love i don't know what is. i'm not worried anymore.

it's inevitable. nathaniel and i are far less two individuals as we are one giant clusterfuck of an entity and getting tangled up in our web is a really sticky, ugly, trashy endeavor that i would wish upon nobody so uh good luck.

that's a lie i have been fucking everything up so hard by not doing what the fuck i am supposed to do and doing what the fuck i want to do. i realize how selfish i have been and i had a short but so so sweet talk and even if everybody else wants nothing to do with me i know he will let me lean on him ( Read more... )

allllll these things to say but really all i have to say is that nothing can stop me now cause i just don't care anymore.

i don't give a damn about my reputation.

i fought the war but the war won.

whenever i wake up try and take the shape of,
turn into the whole wide world i made up

i feel defeated and conquered.