i've been thinking about alot of things lately, mainly about chase and i ( Read more... )

i feel like im loosing my artistic ability.

my worst fear.

im hungry,
for christ sake
[yes sake]

why am i hungry?!

i want to be painfully thin.

i want to writhe away from the world around me

to become lanky and lean,

what can i say, bones are in

and i fell for the trap.

im still here... i cant believe it.

its wierd
i wanted to call him and tell him im falling apart
and now i want to call and tell him how important he is.

i think even inatimate objects get sick of me whining and complaining ( Read more... )

NOTHINGS enough ( Read more... )

I make myself sick.

I once
Dreamed of a world
Without consequences
Without reminders
Of this
Brutal
Gutter
I am collapsed in
Once I dreamed
But then
I
Woke
Up

Open wide, look inside [x2]
At my autopsy

I feel like
A woman
I feel like
I care
I feel like
I shouldn't [live]
I feel like a child
Of d e s p a i r
I feel like
It's over
I feel like it's ( Read more... )

i suspect, yes, david, she is insane, and mostly not right.

today chase and i were suspose to bake a cake.

but he slept too late.

so for the past five hours i ahve been wandering the house, trying not to go insane...

feeling like im in high school again      =[

especially since im listening to music that i use to listen to back in the day, disturbed, ( Read more... )

i have the sudden urge

to go get a razor.....

how pecular

JUST GET ON
WITH YOUR
FUCKING
LIFE

and

SMILE