i was riding the bus this morning and i thought of something that has deeply engraved itself in my heart. 'as you fade into the darkness, the chains that once bind me to this place fall to the ground and shatter with the love that once dwelled' beatiful yet usless to the human mind, but still it saves the dry soul by wetting it only enough to ( Read more... )

i did it. i made the cut. i did it today during 2nd hour. i took a razor from home and brought it here, the weird thing was, it dident feel good. like nothing was let out, like there was nothing to let out, just normal blade going into skin pain. it wasent the pleasure i was expecting from it. i sigh and i let it go. i look out the window of the ( Read more... )

im continuing from my previous publishing. anyways. my cousin died this weekend and she lost her un-born baby. they think she had an anurism but they arent for sure.? i dident really know her but still she was family. she had gotten married a month before and... god this is just so sad. last night i almost cut, i wanted to so bad but every time id ( Read more... )

what the fuck, if i dident know any better i think i would have to say this has been the worst fucking weekend of my life, in fact i beleive it was. i was soo excited my heart finally began to sing and then... i went down to arnold so my parents could drop off some baby stuff for my cousin i was going to be able to see my boyfriend. i got there and ( Read more... )

my name is caitlyn. im 15 years old and am a generally a very odd person. about two monthst ago i was in a psych ward for severe deppresion and attempted suicide. after i got out of the hospital, i met the man ,i beleive, is my true love but yet i still cut. at first my parents dident notice but they were soon to meet again. i denied that i had ( Read more... )

today i was like um happy, whooooooooo thats like a first time in like um forever. like i said its crazy. i just have such a good feeling about everything now. i have the strongest feeling that me and my boyfriend are going to make it, no matter the distance and no matter what has happened. i still dont think its a good idea for my step- dad to ( Read more... )

today in english i wrote a paper of a teenage boy who slit his wrist and slowly but surely died. my teacher read all the papers aloud and everybody stopped to listen to the one of the suicidal teen. "oh my god" people replied. nobody guessed it was me, innocent me. the girl who never talks in class, the innocent little girl. but everybody is wrong ( Read more... )

it takes all of me just to write today. i dont know what to feel. things are so hard but i wont tell anybody no not anymore. i wont hurt people that i care for like that anymore. not after what i've done! i'll keep it to myself and silently dwell in the once again, darkness. i dont know what to beleive anymore. does he love me or is he using me? i ( Read more... )

do you ever think about putting a gun to your head. how bout cutting your wrist with your moms razor. what about popin a few pills. dosent matter, no ones gonna notice, no ones gonna care. Thats really all thats happening these days. the gun, letting me leave this world so quick and theres no more pain, no more tears but theres no more happy ( Read more... )

i long for you. i need to feel you just to know that im really alive! it hurts to just sit back and pretend were gone. im broken when im not with you. you're the puzzle that completes me. we've been through the worst and my love still burns so strong for you. we can prove to them that our dying love can surpass the distance that lies between our ( Read more... )