it's hot, i'm tired, an i'm driz-fuckin-unk ( Read more... )

for all the seriously fucked up events happening in my life recently, i picked up and amre-reading voltaires "candide". don't know if thats a great idea for my mood, but its a awesome book. maybe next i will re-read heinleins "job: a comedy of justice".

karma fucking owes me big time.

all the roommates are gone, it quiet and empty here.

this day is just fucked up beyond all belief ( Read more... )

i don't know why i keep doing these things to myself. stretching myself too thin and pushing myself too close the the breaking point. skirting the edge of the knife as it traces the vein-pattern up the inside of my arm. why i keep putting myself between a circumstance of non-committed and self inflicted destruction. why do i play these games, ( Read more... )

how come, when you are trying to sing, or write lyrics, you do your best work while taking a shower? and by the time you get out and near a paper, you forget everything you had while soaping yourself off. when ever i am in a position where i have no distractions, a place to purely just think, i am always away from anything to jot down notes. and ( Read more... )

oi, the weekend just gets worse ( Read more... )

car won't start. need a jump!

last night. perversion, drink, odd night. 2 hours sleep ( Read more... )

my sleep pattern has been fucked. up till dawn, awake before noon. i find myself starving, yet unwilling to want to spend the cash required for sustenance. fuck it i need to eat. my mood has been all over, from happy/content, frustrated and angered beyond the situation at hand, energetic , and depressed to the state where i just don't want to wake ( Read more... )

it's over-cast this morning.

when will it rain?