Lmao, well a few minutes ago I just found out that my scales weren't set right at all,I have the kind that you have the little black thing that you move to get it on the zero and it was on the 5 or something thus meaning the loads of weight I thought I gained,wasn't right at all,meaning,I'm still 114,YES! I have never been so happy to be 114 in so ( Read more... )

Well,I haven't done too horribly today, I had soup,and some pie,ew ew ew.  But what gets me is that like, that was only about 300 some calories or something, and I'm 119 lbs,tha fuck!?!?!? I feel like i've lost,and I kinda look like I have, but why is the weight going up? I dont know, I'm fasting til Wednesday or Thursday who knows, but yuck I need ( Read more... )

Well i'm down 2 lbs from yesterday thank god, if I can lose 2 lbs a day then I'll make my goal and be 104 in six days, holy shit holy shit holy shit i'm pretty sure I can do this and I intend on it, even though I had pizza and mother fucking cookies today,luckily I purged it all, and took 4 diet pills,and I just worked out a little at 3am? yeah I ( Read more... )

I'm 117 fucking pounds, i'm so god fucking damn far from where I want to be right now it isn't even funny, I feel so out of control,I feel like i've been fighting for utter perfection and it has literally came back and bitch slapped me into hell, I really am out of control and I need to stop this cycle before I do end up fatter than I already am,I ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in quite some time but honestly, I haven't had anything interesting at all to say and I don't want to keep saying i'm fat, i'm fat over and over again but I'm going to say it again, I am fat, and I'm probably not eating that much tommorrow probably negative calories for a while, today was my very last day of school til January 2nd ( Read more... )

I keep randomly disappearing from LJ, blah but i'm updating now,i've lost a lb, and i've been eating pretty normally the past few days i'm 113 which isn't too horrible but still i'm not too happy with it, I want to get to 109 and try to be happy with that, but i've been maintaining which is better than gaining, i've been taking about 4 diet pills a ( Read more... )

Well i'm pretty obese. I've gained i'm sure atleast 4 or 5 thousand lbs, god damn it, yesterday I ate atleast 1,000 calories, so today i'm skipping breakfast, and probably going to eat an apple when I get home. I need to fucking lose 5 by Monday or something because this is ridiculous, I'm a fat fucking cow ( Read more... )

Well today was just eh whatever,I probably had about 600 calories, that's not too bad considering last weekend how I was eating nonstop, tommorrow my Choir class is going to the mall and we're going to see the Nutcracker play which should be pretty neat, we'll see. I don't think i'm going to eat there either, I'm going to have a Special K bar for ( Read more... )

I decided to weigh myself because,I figured it'd help me get back on track or something, and blech now i'm all depressed and freaking out, fucking bastard scales,fucking bastard fat cow, grrr. Okay anyway, 114 exact,god damn it! wtf is my problem,I took 3 of those pills I don't know if it's the fact that i've gained in water weight from the large ( Read more... )

So i've been eating nonstop all fucking weekend,last night was horrible I basically ate all fucking day, and i've gained about 3-4 lbs probably I haven't even weighed myself since Friday or something and I was 114 again,yuck ( Read more... )