aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

let me rephrase that.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

so uh. this is akward.

HEY.

at least he doesn't hate me.

at least he doesn't think I"m a freak.

at least I can still enjoy his music and not be wierd.

at least he still talks to me.

at least he didn't say he didnt' feel the ( Read more... )

...*sigh*....I don't even know.

remember that haze I fell into a while back?

it's making a comeback.

I hung out with **** tonight.....it was wierd...like it always was. we're too much alike. it worries me sometimes. we didn't even go anywhere. or do anything. we just sat here. and chatted. and hung out.........which is rad?.....cause in the past... ( Read more... )

[i can't even pretend write]

I just want him to be aware.
I want to see how he reacts.
I want to see if he cares.
I want to see if it matters.
I want to see how he feels.
I want him to know that I care.

but I'm so terrified of risking.
my dignity.
my feelings.
my heart.
my thoughts.
my [friendship?].
my embaressment.

tis the season. to put ones self ( Read more... )

What a day actually. it all started.

when we went house/apartment hunting. because me and a couple friends want to live together. so we don't have to pay insane amounts of money for 1 bedrooms.

we looked at an ok appartment in magnolia.....the manager was like....hella creepy though....like...as in rebecca said "he's going to rape and kill us....... ( Read more... )

......so.......I just found out my previous.......crush....if you will......is getting married.

and it kinda hurts.

....which is kinda weird....

cause I decided long long ago...like a year....that I could never be the wife he wanted. and he'd never be the husband I wanted.

he's on his way to becoming a pastor.....

I am SO *NOT* pastor's wife material. ( Read more... )

so uh...

tonight was freakin hilarious.

and amazing.

and had some damn cupcakes.

...mr. lashes....kissed me....that was akward....

...till he did it again....

then it was really akward...

he just walked up to an unsuspecting and not paying attention me.....

and kissed me.

lol.

I look at him and am like..."HI".

and also like....wtf just happend.

then tiffany ( Read more... )

I drive myself crazy.

it wasn't as bad-

before I live here.

before he told me where he lives.

before he told me where he works.

before I knew he was as amazing as I thought.

I went to work today. store #37.

I rode the bus. departed at pike and 2nd. walked to the store.

since I was quite early due to the bus schedule. I decided to go to the starbucks ( Read more... )

...I"m not sure where/why/how/whatever i"m going to start this. I've just too many thoughts over flowing right now....and I don't think I can handle it much longer.

I worked at broadway again today. brmph. i freakin hate it there. and hate doesn't even cover how much i hate it. I wish it would spontaniously combust. just so I wouldn't have to go ( Read more... )

This blog entry is brought to you by the word....intense.

this weekend. was probably one of the best weekends ever. me and jen and rayray and rebecca all road tripped it down to fresno CA. to see our airplane to nowhere boy's last show. it was INTENSE. so here's my detailed account of the journey:

we left last thursday. I left seattle at like 5:45 ( Read more... )

I don't know. so many thoughts lately.

I had a discussion with one of my friends on what I believe.....

it's wierd to put your beliefs and faiths into words. it's kinda cool though.

I am a Christian. I believe that God sent His one and only son to die for our sins. I believe that we have to accept him as our savior. I do not believe that 'good' ( Read more... )