i want a really special day. nothing means anything to me now and i can't see it being the case, even in a really perfect situation. only certain things can change that, and by no means do i mean only for myself. i don't like to be selfish, but i am. i can't really explain it; i guess i'm referring to the laundry room floor and what that ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACEYY

yeah, i don't really do this anymore. stuff is weird and bad but anyway, on the news there was the thing about "the noah's ark project" animal shelter, which is right by here...for mistreating animals. meghan and i, and i think katie too? wow sorry, it was like in 7th grade or something, yeah we volunteered there and it was really nasty and stuff ( Read more... )

free time feels weird. i actually had it all along but i wasn't supposed to. now i dont really need to be doing anything..nyssmas over...as of today. it went pretty much really really bad. don't even ask about the cello. it was just a sad idea i had. mine and katherine's duet, the bach double..i guess it could have been worse. i rushed as usual and ( Read more... )

Wow...NYSSMA is on Saturday.

That is so so very bad. Violin solo is horrible. Cello solo is horrible. Duet is interesting, and needs an unspeakable amount of work and practice time when we're actually together (physically, and musically).

I'll be glad when this is over.
And what a miserable week it's been.

reading things like that are what really remind me of last year. and listening to things like this. these are ridiculous things to hold on to but i don't even feel like it was me in those situations. memories are strange and ones like these seem so surreal. i love you and how i've been waiting at the phone for 45 minutes. things are feeling vaguely ( Read more... )

Happy Easter.
today wasn't much of an eventful holiday for me, i just went to my uncles house. millions of pictures were taken as the kids found their eggs and then they served bagels small pieces of bread, with lox though i could have guessed. and avacado. then i came home with my cousin and we made a stupid movie that was funny anyway and she ( Read more... )

I don't have much I feel like saying right now except for
Come see EVITA
Tomorrow and Saturday, March 18th and 19th at FPM
7 O' Clock, $10 anywho ( Read more... )

my grandma wrote me a poem. its funny and it makes me sad.

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I was just reading conversations that i saved from 8th grade...my god. (no i don't do that anymore). It's so weird how much stuff has changed since then and how many things now I would never dare to do or say. I've avoided reading them for a long time because they make me insane ( why not delete them like normal people, good question) but I did; ( Read more... )