Life is good. I've never been so thankful for so many things. So many little things. I was gone for 8 days and nothing else has been so good for me. In the midst of everything I felt so drained. I was stretched physically, emotionally/mentally, and most of all spiritually. I've never been to a point where I found myself so weak I was relying on His ( Read more... )

Things have been weird. I feel extremely strange. Lonely, but only for reasons I forced on myself. I'd rather be by myself then with anyone else. Theres a battlefield in my mind about everything. Nothing comes easy these days. Decisions are almost impossible to make. I almost feel depressed. Trapped. And nothing terrible happend, thats the weird ( Read more... )

i need to feel lonely.

im sorry.

strength.
encouragment.
hope.
and the opposite of loneliness.
is what I want to feel.
right now.
forever.

I want to recover from this, instead of running back to only get (for lack of better word) crushed again.

stupid girl.
you wouldnt understand.

other than that; battle cry, was amazing.

If only I could embrace my feelings, and emotions long enough to accept them, fully understand them, and comprehend why I have them ( Read more... )

Everything is falling in to place. It's like for 19 years i couldnt feel anything, I didnt let myself feel anything. But Im learning to let myself feel them, deal with them, and fix the things i feel. It feels good. I'm excited. Things are looking good ( Read more... )

Just get me out of here! CHOP CHOP!

what to do, what to do.

My view that nobody else sees is that I'm happy. He understands everything about me, I look at him, and I see a rough past with a bright future. I see someone who is trying, with his whole heart to be good enough. Truth is, he's always had what it takes. He just needed someone to encourage him, and show him what faith is. To make him feel like ( Read more... )

This isn't the typical doubt. Its my own insecurities taking the best of me. I don't think I'm fit for that. & I'm not looking to hear otherwise. Not in a "feel sorry for myself" way either. Looking in, and back, & even now... Was that me? was that Him? Was it you? If that were to be the choice, the decision i make, I'd hate to be compared, That ( Read more... )

your slipping between me and my big dreams.

guide me.