let's just add another heartbreak down on the list now...
i hate crying over boys i fall too hard for..
but how can i not fall for someone like him?
he acts like everything's fine...

and it's goddamn not.

All I know of anymore is
vertical cuts.
throwing up.
betrayal of close advocates.
one broken heart after another.
shattered glass everywhere.

nothing i should care about.
it doesn't matter.

there was not even a contemplation of what it was like until it happened.

it came from the very place that gave them hate filled looks with gritted teeth.
how did i stray so far from the best thing i ever loved?

i will never know........

♥

still searching for your call today sit down, and structure will you be the engineer?
still tired and dreaming out against and overboard
when pain kills you'll hate me and wait for or
then call me crazy and pretend i left us discontent and afraid
so what so i'm crazy then send me justice and i'll have paris in flames

you'd think that after all this junk, i'd actually...be...better. but, nooooo. things have to suck. i have to cry all the time. i have to be a huge emo kid on the inside. boys have to break my fucking heart in two. i have to miss the only thing i've ever loved. and i am so sad right now. nothing can help. i want to cry and cry and cry until there's ( Read more... )

I swear i've forgotten how to cry.
I tried and tried to forget your
face.
but i can't.
The memory of you to me is constant.
i can't even fucking
cry about you anymore.
And i just fucking miss you so much.
..This is what i get for letting you tear down my walls..
Congratulations, i miss you.
I'm Hurting.
Are you happy now?

i need you like i need water in my lungs. and you'd think i'd learn by now. but no, i still want to overdose.. on you. ♥

let's destroy each other cuz we're too cool for love lines and soft kisses over cheap wine. ♥ smoke me baby like your last cigarette ♥ and whisper to me. say you'll never forget. could you break my heart a little more? shove my body up against yours and kiss me like you mean it. anything worth a taste burns as it goes down. could you tell me i'm so ( Read more... )

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