I think i've come to a point now in my life where i can't give a shit what other people think of me. For a long time i have struggled with this. I have gone through life being the person everyone wants me to be or thinks I am. I created an identity for myself that was not real or in any way 'me'. If I could be someone else it wouldn't matter if i ( Read more... )

welp, it has been bloody ages since i've written in this thing....seems kind of weird to again....I couldn't see myself writing in here for a while. I didn't think life would get so good so fast...and I wanted to wait until my life was a little more exciting to start writing all about it again..but now I feel it's a good time. I want to fill my ( Read more... )

wow...my journal is lame ( Read more... )

I feel uber stressed and anxious. And I don't even know why!

Maybe it's because I'm meeting up with someone tomorow that i've never met before. And he's a cute boy. That's probably what it is.

still....ahh!

guhh...since when am I so rad? Since when do boys think i'm awesome ( Read more... )

Hrm...I need to start writing some music to make a portfolio for my audition. I've got some bits and pieces here and there but nothing substantial. I need to write something really amazing that will wow everyone. Something classical and evil. Alas, I have a shit mic that makes my voice sound like ass and I don't have proper equipment to record my ( Read more... )

I don't feel like I have much to talk about these days. I don't have anything particularly amazing going on. I could talk about all the drama that recently happened but I feel like i'm over it now and talking about it is just going to put too much thought and energy into it again and I definately don't want to be back in that frame of mind ( Read more... )

I've done something stupid.

And now this feels like that movie "my best friend's wedding"

no one's getting married though. So I guess it's not.

Welp my life is royally fucked officially.

Happy Birthday to me.

I bought myself a dress from my work.

Other than that my birthday doesn't feel like one.

Well I had a super awesome fantastic day today ( Read more... )