i need danger. cigarettes. you are the bluest light.. drunk text.. thanksgiving weekend, and a sigh.

why can't things ever go smoothly with my family? so much conflict, no matter what. my sister is ENGAGED! and megan's receiving no support from the person who should be most likely to be giving it. i hate having to defend ourselves from my parents, namely my dad. he's on my mom's side, no matter what(what a good husband!) so much hate, so much ( Read more... )

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i never want to be as unhappy with my life as my mother is with hers.

 oh my goodness! this is the best day. everything's again balanced. thinking i'm doing well. fresh coffee brewing downstairs. got rid of the kids for the day so i can have peace until swim. :) flirting is back to normal, with the obvious and with the not so obvious persons. ;) ;) love love love. reading my pink book which is turning out so awesome ( Read more... )

ah:) long walk, sushi, talking, nap. california rollllllll. content. love. love. love.

 i need to detox. seriously detox. so much negativity right now, it's ruining my day ( Read more... )

everything is crashing down on me.. i hate those three right now. they hate me.. i suppose everything's just perfect right now. horrible grades, no one to talk to.. i just want to cry but i can't. i have little appetite anymore.. everything's changing. this day officially sucks. and it doesn't help that everyone's been hating on me. could life get ( Read more... )

 i'm so happy right now.. i feel bad too because things aren't so great with jordan at all. but i'm so happy, regardless. people i've met this year, adjustments and adapting to this new life. fresh. everything's so different. but it's not a bad thing.. i like where i am right now, i think. this providence, early november.

i've no patience for tv. it's becoming quite a nuisance. had a swim meet today. had a good day with some people and went my best time ever in my favorite event. 1:08. so full of pride. so i've been looking quite unfortunate for school lately, i have no money and besides that, no time to look good even if i had. unfortunate. i don't want to let ( Read more... )