i don't even have any words as to what i'm feeling right now.

so i finally got my child development test back. and i didn't think i did well or poorly on it.. turns out. i got a 57. i don't even know how long it's been since i did that horribly on an exam. probably like.. back to ap us in 11th grade. needless to say.. i wasn't too pleased with that not so valiant effort on my part ( Read more... )

i hope that this morning was my last appointment with julie ( Read more... )

skatesup817: we can run away together

i think i could get used to that. seriously.

five more days until i'm back in smithtown ( Read more... )

i changed the colors of my layout ( Read more... )

tonight things got worse.

my conversation with my mom was pretty awful. i don't really want to get into it.. but i started out ''yelling'' at her online, then she called me and i ended up in tears for 40 minutes straight.

i can't win.
and i won't.

ever.

i'm still trying. but i'm not making any promises.
and maybe things won't turn out how you want them to.
but you might just have to learn to accept that.

thank you andrew <3.

senses of irony: CHEER UP
senses of irony: i know what will work
senses of irony: say nothing
senses of irony: just wait

( and this is what followed )

today was no better. i missed philosophy of competitive athletics this morning. i didn't even hear my alarm go off at 8 since i was up until all hours of the night keeping an eye on terra.. who spent the majority of the time vomiting into a garbage can. lovely, right ( Read more... )