I swear I have anexity issues. it makes me want to pull out my hair every second of every day. it makes me want to curl into a ball. it makes me want to run home to the people I know will love me unconditionally. Or at least I thought they would. I came home to a mess, a mess and a big massive letdown. The people I thought would be there for me, ( Read more... )

 
I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want
I remember december
And I wanna hear what you have to say about me
Hear if you're gonna live without me
I wanna hear what you want

What I am to you is not real
What I am to you you do not need
What I am to you is not what you mean to me
You give me ( Read more... )

hold on, baby you're losing it ( Read more... )

college for me is never sleeping but taking naps like it's your job.  going to places and getting whole meals for 2 dollars and 11 cents, but still being mad you spent money on it.  getting to know the schedule of food at all the caf's. when midnight brekfast becomes the highlight of your day because it's the only second you AREN't at class or ( Read more... )

And when you went
I became a hopeless drifter
But this life was not for you
Though I learned from you
That beauty need only be a whisper

I'll cross the sea for a different world
With your treasure, a secret for me to hold

In many years they may forget
This love of ours or that we met
They may not know
How much you meant to me.

 i can't write when i'm content with anything. i'm just sad. there's no other word to explain how i feel being wide awake at 4am knowing in an hour my room mate will get off work and have 2987348392 people in our room watching bet.  seriously, that's what my life has become. 

i'm currently very annoyed and I want to say why but not give the satifaction of that person knowing they annoyed me so much. whatever.

i really miss my mom.  it almost burns a hole right through me when I acutally allow myself to feel for her. almost like I can feel every inch of pain that she did. i want to explode. but i want to go out and live my life. expirence things, laugh, smile, live, and dance.  i want that and i know it's what she wanted for me. i wish she was here to ( Read more... )

 im in college and it won't hit me yet till classes start. it feels like a four day get away with no air conditioning or anything nice really. since im here for four days then going home for the weekend; yeah, thats about what it feels like. my dorm looks sweet though, it's in bfe really, no joke. my sweet mates are amazing, well i like them a lot ( Read more... )

some things just take me back to a place I'd rather not be. but after i've been there a couple of times, I guess I get numb to it. situations that bring me back to my past are unavoidable. better just face them.  ehhh, it happens. I really need to get decent sleep tonight but my mind is racing. i'd rather not think too much.  so i'm going to do ( Read more... )