whoa. has it been a minute or what? i stopped using this because so much of the thoughts in here are outdated but something always winds up pulling me back to it. its like a poison i'm addicted to. i think it's because don't know anyone that uses it anymore bu there is still the possibility that someone could find it and read it. i don't want to ( Read more... )

come on kiddo, don't let it bring you down. you can't fight every battle. i know they want you to pick up the pieces and i know you'd like to but sometimes you just can't. for once you've got some momentum and while you can use it you need focus on things that may be far away form there and that's ok. you didn't have that voice of reason and maybe ( Read more... )

there's a faint and growing war in my chest ( Read more... )

you've got to get out of my head ( Read more... )

what are you and what is it that makes me so interesting to you ( Read more... )

i'm an obsolete disaster ( Read more... )

maybe it pisses me off because he's right and i don't want to know it. i have never been the person headed down the dark road or at least i never saw myself that way. i don't want to become something i hate and i don't want to waste anymore time. i have a lot going for me i just need to build on that and get out there. i have to find what makes me ( Read more... )

this summer has been a crazy up and down and sideways and taken me to places i didn't want to go and confused me more than i've ever been. i can't say i feel wholey settled or that i wont be going home at some point anyway but i feel like i need to give this a real shot. i made my point in leaving. sometimes people need a real kick in the ass to ( Read more... )

here it comes. all the words i can't say and all the feelings i wish we didn't have to go through. i'm terrified this time that this is the wrong thing to do but i am just as scared that it's what must be done. i can't take the pressure and i can't make a move. he's been doing well, then last night i think he went mad. he loves me and i know it but ( Read more... )

if i could speak freely and you would listen i don't know where i'd begin but i know there are a lot of things i wish i could say to you. i love you and whether or not i will eve get the chance to say that to you face to face again i know it will always be true. it has been so hard and so weird without you. i know this had to be done i just hope it ( Read more... )