I could die, I just don't care.

I'm thankful for my dad. As cliche as that is, it is the absolute truth. Without him, I honestly would not be here. And I know a lot of other people would not be here either. He has helped so many of his friends out, it's incredible. I've been depressed since seventh grade. Am I saying that it's clinical? No. But do I share symptoms? Yes. No matter ( Read more... )

Have you ever listened to your iPod on shuffle and there were just certain songs you can't listen to at that particular moment because you'll probably break down crying? Probably not. But that's the case right now. And pretty much every other night at this time or around this time. I mean, yes I'm happy for once... but it's just a routine thing. I' ( Read more... )

So, I've honestly been happy for most of this month which is honestly a first. And my birthday is coming up, and then Idol... so my happines will continue. I hope. Because I honestly haven't been happy in years. No lies ( Read more... )

So shit went down. And I'm not really bummed about it, but I never like to lose a friend. So it always sucks. And it's going to be so awkward seeing him at this one party coming up. Very, very awkward. For shits and gigs, I should just go up to him and be like "hhhhhaaaaayyyyyeeee!" No I won't. Maybe. Who knows. We'll just have to see on the

I wish my life would turn out the way I want it to be. I want to live my life the way I want to. Apparently God has other plans for my life and doesn't understand the things I want. No, need. I need stability. I need friends who are actually my friends. I need a better social life. I need happiness. But most of all, I need a new life. I need ( Read more... )

It was magical to say the least. My friend and I got there at around 10:40 and started waiting around 11:30, and there were already people there. To piss them off, at one point I yelled "OMG IS THAT MICHAEL JOHNS?!" and everyone started clapping. Haha.


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So this is the new year, and I don't feel any different ( Read more... )

"Oh, this small town seems to trap us all. You'll be lucky to make it out alive. All the "he said/she said" has got to come to and end tonight. We'll make it alright. Woah, what happened to my best friend? Cause' all I hear is you're hating on me. Let's box it up, glue it shut and throw it out the back door. We can shine like the old days. I know ( Read more... )

I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head where I would impress you with every single word I said would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming. And you'd want to call me and I would be there every time you'd need me. I'd be there every time... But for now I'll look so longingly waiting... For you to want me, for you to need me, for you ( Read more... )