my first two days, described in three word sentences.

school is balls
cute dates whore
jude is hilarious
jadue said penis
sleep is needed
school is balls

School is balls. And as nervous as I was, it all turned out all right. But I felt like such a damn freshman. Okay so waking up at 4:50 when I went to sleep at 1:30 did not do justice. So I need to get sleep. Okay bye!

So, now school is creeping up on my ass and I don't want to go back whatsoever. Well, I mean really want to go, but I just want to get the first day over with. I have one more goal left on my summer list, I accomplished one the other day in a very funny way. I met this guy named Alessandro. He's quite the character. Anyway, I still want love. I ( Read more... )

Wow you love her? Hm, you've only been dating for what, two days? Good lord I am so over dramatic.

So, finally I talked to a friend I'm trying to become close with again. I always think things are going to go back to the way things used to be, but something's different when we talk. It's depressing, but what can I do? Whatever.

So, my wish came true. And I'm happy. I thought I would feel bad, but since we drifted so much, I honestly don't. Heartless? Eh, it happens.

So, high school is coming up. I am honestly scared shitless, and I don't know why. Anywho, my "friends" are starting to drift away. I mean not all, but I don't understand how people I as once close with are no longer close with me. And then there are those people who I wish I could be close with but I know I never will be. Whatevs, Hilton Head in ( Read more... )

Oh, it's no use at all...

I said that I'm fine with the "friends" who are already deciding to not be in my life. But honestly the truth is, is that I am not at all fine with that. See, that's the thing about lying. It's so easy to do. But the "friends" that aren't staying in my life don't know that I am enduring pain. Not depression, no not at all. I mean, I'm making a lot ( Read more... )

For once in my life, I am speechless. I don't know what to say.. about anything.

Except I want to fall in love. I don't know why. I just do. Or I just want someone. I want a boy in my life. No one specific. But I do.