in a few short days, it will be a year. I hadn't thought about this one bit until he started trying to wedge his way back into my life. why? you rape me. harrass me. threaten me. tell me that I was "the best lay you ever had." tell everyone that I said you raped me because I wanted attention. does me not saying "get off me" or "no" or trying with ( Read more... )

I think yet again, I've opened up my heart to you and have messed things up. please don't hate me. my heart can't take another round.

♥theclosestthingtoperfectbutthefurthestthingfromme♥

on another note...
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blast from the fucking past.
first Derek; now Chris. wtf?!

I need you so much closer.there is no one to talk to anymore ( Read more... )

you confuse me.
yet you make me smile at the same time.
I'm curious as to what your intentions are at the moment.
I wish you wouldn't play with me like you do.
you're the only person who has the power to destroy me.
...and yes, that scares the shit out of me.
I love you & I miss you.
please don't hurt me again.

the only one I need right now has no time for me anymore ( Read more... )

I want to go back to the age where I didn't have to work.
alll this stress from it is gonna make me die before I'm 20.
sgfsfgfdgyhb.
yes I'm over exaggerating...GET OVER IT.
and yes...I know I spelled the word wrong. bite me.

if I had one wish...

life is too fucking complicated.

I wish I hated him half as much as I hate myself ( Read more... )

I don't know what I want anymore ( Read more... )

I fear everyone is going to forget about me now that I'm here.

I keep having these bad dreams that they are trying to.

wtf??

I hate myself at the moment.

I feel like a complete idiot and failure for what happened tonight.
I'm ashamed of myself and I wish I could take it all back.

oh the fun of being me! :rolls eyes: