i just feel lost. and i feel like i can't tell anybody that i cry just about every time i get in the car. that i sit around my own home feeling like no one cares to come over, and if they do it's only to drink or smoke ( Read more... )

i feel like everytime i talk to him, i want to cry. and that's just not something i have time for.

i'm in love. with everyone and everything. the sad part is, i'm still miserable. i'm in genuine love with just one person, but that's getting crossed out of my life in less than a month. it made me cry the other day, on my way home from cleveland/chicago/lollapalooza. it was really odd. in the car listening to against me!, on 271, this emotion just ( Read more... )

i feel dead already.

things are generally going very well ( Read more... )

He's coming off of three years of being single and sleeping around and has to get back into ‘relationship mode’. Those words are heavy and he doesn’t want to use them if he’s not 110% sure he can mean it and stick to it. He’s sorry that I have to ‘suffer through’ it, waiting for him to be ready. When he was talking about me the other night with his ( Read more... )

there really are some days that no matter what happens, i just don't think i can do it. i don't think i can pull through. i don't think i want to wake up the next day. call it severe bipolar, or whatever. but so many things in my life seem like their in place, and then one tiny little thing later, i feel like my whole world is about to come ( Read more... )

so i'm staring at a picture, taken about a week ago. and i can't help but wonder how i really feel. i absolutely love this picture. everything about it. i miss him. i really do. i think that's the worst part. i talk to him every day but i never feel better about it. i feel like i could talk to him for hours. i miss walking home with him, completely ( Read more... )

victory is mine ( Read more... )

he asked "why did you stop calling me?" in the saddest tone yet. i thought about it, really? cause i didn't think you wanted me to. instead i say "i don't know, i'm sorry." he tells me i better call him later. i do ( Read more... )