im getting a new journal. it is ohimspinning  i'm going to be making it friends only, so add me if you want to continue reading..?

hah. im really cold. i have chocolate ball things covered in icing sugar and my face is all white. <3

In my early years i hid my tears ( Read more... )

Pink Floyd - Jugband Blues Lyrics ( Read more... )

has it turned as cold as stone?

seems these days i don't feel anything

less it cuts me right down to the bone.

this week has lasted forever. yesterday jo and i weny shopping in birmingham. christmas shopping that is, the best kind. i'm, feeling less scrugey this year.. but who knows.

we got caramel coffee frapacchinos and saw a hot indie boy ( Read more... )

things are crap. actually. i dont have anything to complain about besis the fact i have depression and, yes, things are getting bad again.. :(
ben and i are together.. no worrying anyone.
blah. i have health and social homework to do. i hate hate hate that class

im never drinking again... i went to sam and petes last night, watched fireworks and got awfully drunk, made such a fool out of myself and has the worst depressive come down. :( i feel shit today. im embaressed...

i'm heartbroken

i am an unhappy person
i strongly dislike myself
i strongly dislike my body
i hate the things i do
i take drugs

i am abusive
i am untrusting
i am deadly
i am irrational
i am pathetic
i am fat
i am ugly
i am tired
i am tired
i am so so tired of pretending.

so tired.

nothing in my life makes sense nothing i do or say or feel makes sense.

i feel like everything ( Read more... )

i really hate myself today.

wednsday 20th: saw HIM at the wolverhampton civic hall. it was a great gig, i got about 1 head away from the barrier. it was a very short set though, but then again, i dont think i could have lasted any longer in the pit. hah. me and jo got served drinks because the barman liked our outfits and complemented us on not being goths ( Read more... )