i have this amazing ability to make men who absolutely adore me completely hate me in a matter of months. I feel like anytime i find something or someone who i feel like i could actually really see myself with they are unattainable. My first love will always be a distance from me, i will never see him. I will always love him and never find anyone ( Read more... )

i think its safe to say im going to be the crazy catlady.

why does my mind so often wonder back to him ( Read more... )

sometimes even though i am really really happy with my life.
i get kinda lonely.. it's rare but, when it happens it sucks.

i feel like im back at square one again ( Read more... )

lately ive been womdering what your thinking and how you are.
i haven't forgotten our past, and i haven't forgotten you.
I miss you, There is no one that can compare to you.
There is no one that will be able to replace you in my heart.
I wish things were different, but they aren't and its been accepted.

i feel like i have lost all the creativity ( Read more... )

i'm coming to the conclusion there is something really wrong with me. I wish i knew where to start on what exactly IS wrong with me. I am a bitch. I have no heart & i can place people out of my mind no matter what. I feel like a stone sometimes, like nothing can get in and i cant let anything out. Since Banks and i broke up i haven't been the same ( Read more... )

i love that i live in San Francisco.

I guess i remember why i was so upset about moving away i knew as soon as Ryan and i moved that our friendship would never be the same. In fact we wouldnt even be the same people when we came back home. I was right to be upset to leave the boys because they are growing up in high school boys and well i dont get to be part of it. I loved my friends ( Read more... )

Growing up is so fun. I can't believe im already done with a year of college. I feel so much more grown up that i did before i left. Now that im back in AZ i dont even know why i was so upset to leave it. I have never been so happy. San Francisco is my home.. I am myself there. I feel like when im in Arizona i am being smothered, i cant let loose ( Read more... )