it's hard when the days are so short and the nights are so long

[_closetome]

i haven't accomplished much of anything these last few months and i keep making excuses for myself. work. school. society. anything to give my mind a little rest. an idea of peace, that everything really is under control, everything is handled, and i don't get that awful feeling that i am worthless to just about everyone and everything. i mean

Comments

[xlamexsaucex]

i can relate more to this journal than i think you know. i completely agree with everything you have said, and i have contemplated most of what you are thinking about right now. in fact this past weekend got me thinking about a lot of these same things

[giveme_life]

that was a keen observation about individuality in iv. no one seems very passionate about things here unless it's partying or naming off bands. i think we're too damn laid back to care about anything else.

[xlamexsaucex]

i think calling it laid back is making it a positive thing, or at least being sympathetic about it. its not being laid back, its superficiality.

[giveme_life]

agreed. where do you think it stems from?

[_moonshadow]

somehow i've found a balance of friends who rarely or never party and then some that party every weekend. balance is key for me (i am a libra). sure, i'd rather have more friends, but the few i have now allow me more freedom to do my alone thing. the times when i've had many friends allowed me to be much more social. both have their ups and downs, but i have had fun either way.

i wish i had your charisma, your ability to make friends so easily. i'm so bad about staying in touch with people. there's so many fakers here.

[giveme_life]

"iv is so surreal in itself, thousands of people, of students, of kids who are all in the same general age group, co-existing within a square mile. who are all these people? i won't ever know them all. that would be impossible. i don't even want to know them all, but sometimes i feel like there are just so many amazing people so close to me, that it is just teasing me that i haven't met them. what is stopping me from hanging out with them everyday? "

i was thinking about this a lot the other day too!

[giveme_life]

also: this entry reads really well and i enjoyed reading it.

[sarahleek]

i like when you post- it is easy to read - a good read - but i can understand why you might not post a lot