God damnit fucking shit ass. I want to die right now. I feel hideous; like I can't show my face to anybody in this entire world. I feel disgusting. There is a bubble of disgust floating around me and there are people everywhere to make it seem much worse. But it's really all in my head. I hate this fucking shit ( Read more... )

Relax. Just do it.

I think I'm afraid to type off what I really want to say. So I hide it. Because, one way or another, it will throw itself back in my face and make me feel like shit for saying how I really felt or what REALLY went on. All of the disapproving annoys me. Why can't people just fucking accept the way that it is. I have to mask everything. This is a ( Read more... )

So I'm home and it's Thanksgiving weekend and it's already Saturday afternoon. Time goes by so fucking fast... but what else is new? I've realized how much I don't really like being home. I miss Central because it has BECOME my home. That is where I live and that is where everything is to me. I never thought that could happen, but it's true. These ( Read more... )

ohhh maaannn, last night was fucking crazy!! i had so much fun, though ;) but i am dead tired because i only slept *maybe* at most, from 8-9:30ish this morning. goodness gracious. hehehehehehahmasmefsjdalkfjsldkjrlks ahahahah.

November 18, 2000 ( Read more... )

Missy took me, Whisper, & Allison to Alma for the midnight showing of HARRY POTTER AND THE GOBLET OF FIRE tonight!! Oh my godddd, it was fucking amazing. :)

Guess what bitch! It's snowing!!!! Yeah, that's right, it's the first snowfall of the year. I'm going to like my computer being by the window to watch the snow fall this year ( Read more... )

I just got back from walking around the Woldt/Emmons and Saxe/Herrig dorms with Allison trying to figure out where we want to live next year. I think we have it narrowed down to Saxe and, preferrably, the first floor. It was really weird, though. Walking around over there felt like I was kind of in another world or something. It made me start to ( Read more... )

Late night last night. Eric stayed over and we didn't go to sleep until past 6am this morning. Wow. I'm going to the game... peace. :)