c'mon, get higher.

I'm finding I can be happy in EL again after returning from Spain. Happier here now than I was all of last year. A lot of things lately make me remember what it felt like living here alone when Jess was my 'roommate' and I built all this independence and worked myself up from nothing into someone better than I'd been before. I went from a messy, ( Read more... )

Life is beautiful again.

i'm so mad at my job, because i blame it for taking this summer from me. everyone's busy writing about their fantastic summers and the late nights spent with toes in the sand and first kisses and i've got none of that. i've got dread and sleeping to ignore and time spent at my computer, quite a few nights with kyle but far fewer than my fantasies ( Read more... )

i should remember to be more fearless. the difference with me now is that i spend so much time fearing the loss of what i want that i can't enjoy it all the way. i get jealous, i get scared, i worry, and become neurotic. i'm trying to start a mantra of pushing that all aside again, though. i want to have fun and be happy and stop wasting so much

i've been lucky, so lucky. i've been smiling, i've been laughing. i've been crying, head in hand, a song that induces it on a loop. i've been lucky. whatever has happened, i have brought on myself.

and there's still pizza in the fridge from his visit a week ago.

those mistakes you make to feel alive can make you feel dead, too.

A friend of mine recently met a new man. A new, "wonderful" man. He thinks of her often, bought her an adorable stuffed animal for her birthday, and connects with her on a lot of emotional levels right now. He also has a live-in girlfriend of a year and a half whom he's struggling with, and wanting to leave but unsure of how ( Read more... )

Pete Yorn played GR Saturday night. It was tiny but sold out and one of those more rare experiences you try to adequately take notice of before its over.

That, and alcohol, sex, love, being respected, warm weather, better habits, having gone to California, Olivia being 3...

you want to have something thats real, well
give it some time, baby