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My name is Jerry Romero, and I am 23 years old. If you have found this journal, it is through your own actions. I will not comment on other entries in an attempt to make friends. I am leaving this in the hands of Fate and no-one else. This journal was created solely for the purpose of providing one last lifeline in a vast sea of hopelessness

Comments

[anonymous]

I'm afraid to say there is no higher power. And even if there was a god I doubt u can bargain with him like u r doing now "I'll kill myself if u don't show u exist" religion is all about faith. If u need proof u r lacking in it. I know how depression is and if u want to kill urself, if it gives u some peace than good for u. But realise death truly is the end there's no afterlife or any of that. Well I don't think that is and its not really worth gambling on. What's wrong with a world based on accidents and chance. I think a world based on destiny would be much more horrible, one controlled by powers beyond your grasp. If a higher power existed u don't even know they'd be good. You don't know Gods not just evil and manipulative and playing games with us all. But I don't believe. A life without a higher power empowers us as human beings. It means no rules, it means we are free. And its hard being free and its hard living a life without ne real meaning. But u learn to live for the sake of living or die cos u just can't be bothered with

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Thank you for your comment. I would be interested to know how you discovered my journal.

I am bipolar. Sometimes I believe that there must be a higher power, and sometimes I believe that we are simply floating through space on a precarious tether. It really depends on whether I am on a high or low at the time. Looking back, you may be confused by my statements about the afterlife and Fate. I have hope for a higher purpose, but I've never truly believed in one. I apologise if this was unclear. My thoughts are muddled at times. I feel as if I am swinging back and forth between hope for intervention and hopelessness for anything more to life.

Jerry, I know of someone whose love 4U is greater than all the hate these people have 4u combined!

[anonymous]

Hey Jerry

Re: Jerry, I know of someone whose love 4U is greater than all the hate these people have 4u combine

[anonymous]

OMFG

This person is delusional and dangerous. You are more important than any superstitious mythology. And I've never read of any facts to prove God exits. God simply doesn't exist outside personal experience. And the very nature of that kind of experience that only removes the individual from any collective experience. What is important is the connection that individuals make with one another. A mythological God doesn't matter - you and I do.

I am truly sorry you want to die. I wish I could promise you paradise forever. I can't. But if you kill yourself I will lose the chance, forever, to meet, to talk to and to connect with you as a satient being.

That makes me sad.

Good Riddance

[anonymous]

You are simply an attention wanting whore. 'Oh, look at me, I will kill myself unless someone pretends they care via internet!' Grow up, pal. There are millions, and I mean MILLIONS of people living today that have a life that is harder than yours in every aspect. If you think you need to kill yourself, but hope for people to care, I pity you. If you are in that mindframe, good riddance.

And another thing: We will have no idea whether you are dead or not. I could do the same thing: Tell people I will kill myself, and then never return to my journal ever again. Unless, of course, you give us your full name, and a web link to your local newspaper, so we can all read your obituary.

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I will not be offering any personal information on this journal. I will not do this simply because I do not want my family to get wind of it somehow and read it. This will only cause them more pain, because they will inevitably think "if only I had known about this sooner, I could have done something". The name I use is also fake. If you need proof that I have gone through with it, I'm sorry, but I can't provide that. I have a responsibility to protect those that know me in real life.

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[jdev27]

not to rain on your parade, but, have you any idea how many times this has been brought to the attention of any of the administrators at livejournal? Im quite suprised that they have not contacted your ISP to determine where you live, to intervene on this. eh, whatever thought. ive got some more reading to do before I comment further.

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[anonymous]

hi jerry im the one who wrote "dont do it" (the really long one on p4) in your above intery. dont say that your sorry. you shouldnt be sorry for how you feel. really, i think you do need to talk to your family. you just really answered your own question if ppl care right there. i mean, you just said if you told your family theyd go nuts right? well hello! if they didnt care about you, then theyd just be like well dont expect me to pay for a funeral! but they do care, and thats a start. family is the roughest crap... i mean, friends you pick for yourself, but your family you dont get to pick. your family knows you better than anyone, if you can win over some ppl you where forced with that know all your details, then whos to say someone you get to pick and tell them only the good things about you will love you? really like i said, dont sit around waiting for someone to make you happy. as you can see these scumbags only care about themselves and their intertainment. if you wanna be happy you gotta get up and do it yourself. i think

[starbinder]

For your first entry, I suppose I should attempt to convince you to take a new look at the very first of the fears you let show

please don't

[anonymous]

Please don't kill yourself, that would be a horrible mistake. Life is a wonderful gift, and it would be a shame for yours to end.

[anonymous]

What the hell? Some of you are fucked up, why would you want ANYONE to die?

Why not?

[anonymous]

Go on Jerry

DO IT, Do it!

do it!!

Snick snack

BANG

Clatter

Thud