drama follows me like my fucking shadow. Jon's so gay he always yells at me about money when he is the one with a job. N he said now that he has his car we get to see each other so much more, not happening. He told me today im jealous of another girl. I can say something really mean back to that but I will hold back for the moment. Plus he told me ( Read more... )

I missed warped tour. Not like anyone that knows me didn't hear that by now. I was sick with 102 fever and couldn't talk or move for that matter. If I was with Dara I would have gotten backstage with her and if I was with Jon I would have met Billy Talent and Bowling for soup ;( Not to mention I missed Katie's birthday party and Jon was hanging ( Read more... )

I feel so out of control and unstable. I wish someone could prove to me that there is a meaning to my existence. To go through the same routine everyday going in circles not going anywhere with your life. Tearing myself up inside trying to find that innerpeace that most likely isn't even there. I wish I coulda have one accomplishment one good thing ( Read more... )

Fuck me. I was suppossed to hang out with Katie for her birthday today and do a billion other things this week. But i'm sick with a high fever and it sucks I got it from helping my mom out. I went to the doctors today he thought I had strep but the test came back negative and he has no idea what I have. My fever has been broken all night which is ( Read more... )

Yo. I woke up yesterday and my mom says we have to cancel my party because she's sick. So ya, I was really sad. But Katie, Dara, and Jon came over and we all went out to ichaban. It's a korean steak house. We sat outside on the swings.. It was really nice but so expensive. Like 25 bucks a person. Katie said she's getting me my present either next ( Read more... )

Im surrounded by imposters, im surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn

hear my heartbeat it beats. one last time for you

get out of my head

im so excited my birthday party is on Sunday. Mai Kai restraunt yeyyy! Wendeday is Katie's birthday then Thursday is dinner with the whole group. Oh and the weekend after this one is warped tour <33 ( Read more... )

Why do people who are closest to you always seem to hurt you the most? I don't even know what to say the vacant promises &why am I so happy thinking it's okay when we both know it's not.

im yours in a sick way covered up
your all the love that could be but never was

save me
before the drug you feed me ends it all..