please make thsi feeling stop. please explain things to me. i dont know what to do right now. nothing feels right at all. there is no solace, there are no dreams that i awnt to have. all i awnt is this feeling to stop. only i want to be content and happy. i just hurt, temporary joy and permanent sorrow. what will make me better? this is way ( Read more... )

i want to hold on to something beautiful. i want to find it, squeeze tight and never let go. i want to have that feeling where i can never be holding on tight enough or long enough again. i want so much to have someone consume my everything once more. just one person to be with and never be alone ( Read more... )

and she said it went like this:
he said we'd make a good couple. i (as in she) said, but it's not like that, he is like an older brother to me.

rip off the cover because i swear to God none of it's real ( Read more... )

last night when i was riding in the car with my dad, he finally asked him how im diong in school ( Read more... )

i dont understand what i seek in friendships ( Read more... )

i almost wish i hadnt gone home. because i know that if i hadnt i would have stayed not missing it because it had been so long. and missing people. but i guess only good things are missed. and everyone likes good things ( Read more... )

I came home today and got this email ( Read more... )

i hate how im completely confused as to where my life is going right now. i have no idea of my purpose or plans for the future. i know what i want to do, but i dont know how realistic it will be that it happens. i hate feeling like i wont be as good as someone else at things, and i dont really know where to start. im scared as hell, and im just ( Read more... )

i knew this girl a little bit. i never really talked to her until one day when she was walking by my room and i asked her how she was doing. she went on to tell me about how her best friend had just had a stroke for no apparent reason and was in a coma. i could tell she had no one to go with here so i tlaked to her. i kept hanging otu with her ( Read more... )