shes ok, it was just a concussion and hurting her back, but seeing a person lay unconscious for roughly four minutes then have a panic attack and barely breathing made me the most scared ive ever been. i felt so helpless. all i could do was pray. thank God shes ok.

ive never experienced what happened friday night in my entire life.

and i pray that i never will again.

ive never been so afraid and felt so helpless.

but ive never felt like i needed help so much.

pray for my friend. she is hurt and we dont know how bad.

i was just reading all my old entries here, wow have things changed in the past 3 months. i went from wanting to move so bad, to being scared. i dont think im scared anymore though, but im not totally looking forward to it ( Read more... )

please hold my hand one night.
please forget you did two days later.
i love it.
i love how that was awkward.
i loved it when you left.
i loved it how i could tell you wanted more.
but still you left.
i love how you pretty much ruined my night.
all i wanted to do was talk to you.
just clear it up for me.
yes or no?
ill understand.

dear chad ( Read more... )

i hate how every time i think about moving now, i get this weird feeling in my stomach. it really worries me, i just want to know where it is coming from. i dont want to do anything wrong. i guess it can be because ive never really left anything on good terms. quitting high school i had pissed everyone off anyways, moving to bend i pretty much ( Read more... )

i dont like how i dont control myself enough in groups ( Read more... )

someone today actually said theyd miss me when i move.

that made me feel really good.

my parens gave me the name chad mitchell ( Read more... )

maybe im just doubting myself and being stupid, but it happens alot and it annoys me.