I haven't writen in a while because well nothing as changed! I'm really tired. Things are getting so much worse and its scaring me! Well lets see... I got a new car thats about it in that area. The dance recital was tonight and of course I didnt' get any awards :( I have no friends I'm all alone and i hate it! My sister didnt come to my dance ( Read more... )

i'm a member of a group and you can make secrets and submit hem in. Since I'm feeing like shit right now very lonely and fat and all that jazz I figured I would show you my secerts....

My Secerets Here

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I was bored tonight so i thought I'd share some of my art work! So I took pictures of it all! I have a slide show of it on my myspace if this link doesn't work... comments are very much welcome thanks so much! Hope you enjoy!

MY ART WORK

Well my dance teacehr wrote me back on myspace and this was her response ( Read more... )

I can barly type right now.... I should be laying in bed because I feel like I just got shot over 100 times in my heart! I can't breath and I can't cry I almost got into 3 accidents on the way home... I just want to jump off a bridge, ram my car into a tree, od on sleeping pills, or put a gun to my head and shoot myself... why? Well if things ( Read more... )

If anyone saw this week's House show well you know how he couldn't take the pain anymore and wnated to be put into a coma?? Well I want that!!! Mine isn't only physical its also and mostly mental! I am in so much pain I can barly live if that makes sense?? My therapist called me today for an insurance issue she asked how I was doing and I said ( Read more... )

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I don't know if its just me but does anyone get depressed on their bday? Mine is today *friday* since its 240am here! *sigh* It just reminds me of how many people don't care if your here or not.. Your bday is suppose to be special but everyone makes it out be a big deal... My mom asked if any of my "friends" were doing anything with me tomorrow ( Read more... )

I HATE BEING SINGLE!!!! I FEEL AS IF I'LL BE ALONE FOREVER :( *SIGH* I sometimes fear I forget how to kiss seriously... how to love! I just hate this life I"m leading right now but yet I pretend nothing is wrong and go on with my daily life! My mom said to me last night that i'm acting weird! i just said I was tired but really i was dieing inside! ( Read more... )

I really wish every girl in the world was gay because if they were then maybe i would have the girl I really like right now... I dance with her and I told her today that I liked her *ya stupid me* but it was eating at me alive! She said she kind of knew anyways *sigh* she has a bf lucky him... I hate guys sometimes that take 'my' girls away its not ( Read more... )